Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2013 21:37:38 GMT -5
The fresh layer of snow crunched noisily beneath Amyntas’ large paws. It had been snowing heavily lately, covering most of the northern territories in a beautiful blanket of white. If it weren’t for the small patch of black fur on his rear, Amyn would have been all but invisible. Now if only the snow remained all year round. Being able to hide at any given moment would surely come in handy once the black and gold alpha of Descai discovered his hiding place. Sleep had been evading the arctic brute for far too long. Not only was he paranoid about the Descai alpha’s haunting words, he was also feeling a terrible guilt. He was part of the Airila pack now, yet he was lying to each and every one of his so-called pack members. To them, he was Zephyr, potential warrior. But the reality was that he was Amyntas, coward extraordinaire. He was lucky to have not screwed up the pack hunt. How he had managed to keep his focus was beyond him. But he could not rest fully with a guilty conscience. It was as if he had murdered Naomi and Zephyr all over again. He hadn’t slept for weeks after that massacre. And then there was Kallik... All of the blood on his paws... It was slowly eating away at his mind, slowly dragging him into insanity. He needed to find some reason to fight, some reason to live before it all became too much to bear. Death was the second to last thing on his mind. The true last was going insane. He would much rather be dead than insane. With a deep sigh, Amyn came to a standstill, casting his golden gaze to the sky. Just as snow had blanketed the earth, clouds blanketed the heavens, blocking any and all light from above. This saddened the arctic brute. He wanted to see stars, to contemplate his future among the gods. But with all the clouds... It was as if there was a massive wall between himself and the truth. And he wasn’t strong enough to tear it down. He was weak and vulnerable, and in desperate need of guidance. But where would he find that guidance if the heavens were closed off to him. Amyn stared for some time at the cloud barrier, as if his intense gaze would break a hole in the cover. Yet the dark sky remained so. He would find no revelation of his future tonight, and if the rest of the week played out in kind, he would find no revelation any time soon. All he wanted was someone he could talk to honestly. Someone who wouldn’t tear him a new one for lying through his teeth. Someone who could forgive him for being a monster. Someone who could save him from himself. words:: Four-Hundred and Seventy-Eight muse:: Rusty... tags:: Open ooc:: This post didn't go exactly as planned DX |