I was hanging out with a guy that I had a major crush on two years ago last night, and he kissed me and I kissed him back. I don't blame Matt for breaking up with me at all, I deserved it. However, he was my world, so my world is crashing down. I feel dead on the inside, and my depression is through the roof.
So basically my muse is dead. So I don't know when I will be able to post again. I love you all, and I will still pop in.
Same characters affected as always...
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
So, I thought I would keep you guys slightly updated. I am still in a depression from losing Matt, so my muse hasn't been too great. He told me to work on the things I promised that I would for a couple of months and then we would see what happens. On a side note, my midterm grades weren't too hot so I need to concentrate on my school work instead of being on the computer, so I am deciding to go on a short hiatus until things get better. I will still pop in to do my staff duties, but I will not be replying, so for any of the threads I am in, please feel free to skip my turn.
This was a tough decision to make, but I am quitting Anikira for now. This place has gone dead again and a lot of our main people have left, plus my muse has been dead because of all of the things that have been going on. This is an indefinite leave because once school is over and things start to get better, then I may want to come back, but I can't guarantee it. I will still stop by and do my admin duties when I do, but how often that will be I couldn't tell you. So I am sorry Uru and everyone else, I still love you all. <3
Love, Nia
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Before I start, I promise I am not leaving or anything so no need to worry.
As some of you may know, I am not doing well in school at all. I've been getting D's and F's on exams which is not like me. I am majoring in Biology and hoping to become a Neurosurgeon, but with my grades lately, if I don't buckle down now, I will never reach my goal. So I need to spend more time studying and less time on here.
On top of that, my muse has been iffy. For those of you who don't know, we are having to sell my horse at the end of this year. He is on of my closest friends and no words can describe the bond him and I have. I may not show it on here, but I am not taking it very well because I cannot imagine my life without Chesney. So with the remaining time I have left with him, I am going to go spend as much time with him as possible. There is a potential buyer in Kentucky and I don't think the place is too terribly far from where I live, so if she gets her, I can maybe still see him on the weekends. Still, it is going to be hard to let go.
I just thought that I would make an official post about it.
So basically replies will be coming slow. I will still however be on regularly to do my staff duties.
All characters affected.
However, when I do post, I will be concentrating on posting with Severus since Ultoris has become quite popular.
Please do keep me in your thoughts. <3
Last Edit: Oct 24, 2014 19:23:02 GMT -5 by Severus
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Update: We sold my horse to my trainer so I still have full access to him which makes me happy. As a precaution, don't mention it on Facebook if you are friends with me since it is on the down low do to the circumstances of the situation.
I am also doing slightly better in school, so yay.
New Absence: This week is dead week and next week if finals. This Wednesday I have a five page literary analysis due, as well as two things for my genetics lab.
So basically my activity these next to weeks will be pretty much non-existent. But after finals are over, I shall be back.
So the new semester started a few weeks ago and one of my New Year's resolutions was to do better in school. Most of my classes this semester are easy, except for Cell Biology. And I have an exam in that class this Monday that covers 6 chapters. I've only gone over chapter 1 so I have 5 more chapters to go over and have four days to do so. Needless to say, I will probably not get any posts in until after Monday. I apologize to everyone who is waiting for a Severus reply, his threads will be my top priority.
So I will be going on a semi hiatus. Before I explain, I will still post at least once a week, but that's probably all I can do. Usually I am able to write a reply in my microbiology class which I have on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. Though I have a tendency to skip it since it's super easy.
I made the decision to do this because I really need to get my shit together school wise. I'm wanting to apply to med school and I already have to repeat two classes. I haven't been giving it my 100% and it is also causing me to maybe lose my Promise Scholarship which pays $4,500 of my tuition each semester. My dad makes too much so I don't qualify for grants or a decent amount of loans that don't acquire interest until I graduate.
I will link my to do list once I have it made. I'm currently doing laundry and getting ready to get a shower so that I can run to Walmart since I forgot my laptop charger back at my apartment so I am going to buy a new one
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
So of some of you might know, I've been dealing with chronic fatigue for quite some time now. It has only gotten worse to I got blood work done and am still waiting for the results, which I should have gotten Thursday . This is partially the reason why my activity has been scarce. I will try to get my owed replies done here soon. I was wanting to today but my fatigue is acting up.
Just thought I would formally let you all know this.
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
So blood test results came back normal, so they are thinking that it is a diet issue that is causing my fatigue. I don't eat well in general because I'm lazy so I guess I will have to change that.
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Well a few Fridays ago during a Dungeon and Dragons session, I became a bit too flirty with the Dungeon master (Which I developed a somewhat of a close relationship to before Aaron and I got back together ). Well after the session, I went on the porch since I was pissed that my pet dragon got killed. Well the DM came to the porch to apologize and I obviously eventually forgave him then him and I partook in one of our usual long talks on the porch. We began to talk about our feelings for each other and how it wasn't fair to Aaron. Well I faces got close as we were both sharing our mutual feeling of wanting to kiss each other, b it we didn't.
Well the next morning after I left Aaron's, I got a text from him saying, "So I heard you kissed Mathis last night," well I told him that I didn't but we still broke up. I was a mess and went to Mathis's place. He comforted me and we kissed some and then the next day we even went further...I was an absolute mess and I tend to make dumb decisions when I do so.
Well I've been away from Huntington for almost a good month now and things have been slowly getting better. There have been a couple of set backs but I learned last night that it probably was never going to work out with Aaron and I.
TLDR; I'm pretty much just kind of down. All of this has caused some strain between the rest of the group and myself so I feel like I don't belong.
I will be making a comeback here soon though.
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Oh Nia, even though things are somewhat of a mess right now, I promise that life will get better. You will experience so many ups and downs, and this is simply a period of 'down.' The good new is: there's only going up from here.
Love you. Take care of yourself before you come back here. And if there's anything you need, you know we are here for you. <3
So just like for most people, the fall semester has started up. I'm in my senior year of college, but due to seeing the wrong advisor for most of my time at the community college and having trouble adapting to the change from a community college to an actual university, I am quite behind on my graduation date. -.-
I have decided that I am gonna get my shit together (i srs mean it this time) and actually try and keep up with my school work.
This semester I am only taking 12 credit hours, but I am doubled up on science classes. I am taking CHM 211 (Chemistry 1) and it's lab and then I am retaking Cell Biology. As I mentioned before, I am behind in chemistry and by now I should have been in at least Organic 1.
Anyways, this is just a heads up for why my replies will be slow.
Once I get some time, I am gonna make my to do list and I will link it into this thread.
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Well, it's time of that year again. So this week is dead week and next week if finals (shoot me please) I won't really get many replies up and will only pop in occasionally, mainly just to lurk and possibly take care of staff duties. And of course I have no motivation to study so yeah x.x
ALSO
Also as most of you know, I've been going through frequent bouts of depression due to the situation I am in and that causes my muse to die. I have also been sleeping a lot (nothing new) so yeah, I don't have much time in general. And this is an ongoing thing so I just wanted to put this out there so you will know why I might poof sometimes.
If you'd like to get ahold of me, the best way is Telegram. My username on there is lynzeenicolex3
So just wanted to explain my brief absence which might continue for another day or so.
I've been sick since Sunday and it just seems to be getting worse. It's causing me to not feel like getting posts up and what not.
Also sadly, school starts back up Monday so my activity will start being spotty. I will try to get all owed posts up by then though so that everyone I am threading with doesn't have to wait any longer.
Severus - Tundra Wolf - Six years - Male - Ultoris Alpha
Just a heads up, my activity will be low for awhile.
I got a 1.75 GPA last semester, which was a big reality check since the lowest GPA I have ever gotten was a 2.5. This semester I am taking 2 very hard classes which means it will make it harder for me to redeem myself.
I've been able to feel at this semester these past two weeks and I know that I am going to have to study my ass off every day which will be a challenge since I am the worst at time management and adulting in general. Plus all of this in general has really put a damper on my muse.
I will try to get replies up when I can so I apologize in advance for making you all wait for replies, I will do my best. <3