[birthing thread] what pain is this?

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grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down
i'd just stare out my window, dreaming of what could be and if i'd end up happy

AOWYN

the pains had started earlier in the day and in that instant she had become oblivious to the world around her, had thrown herself and her pregnant belly into the moss bed she had prepared the day or two before. if rasalas was there, she did not see him, the pain struck her in the back and side, and she didn't know what it was. the slight yelp and following strangled whines left her lips seemed constant as she laid there for awhile. the convulsions traveled through her muscles at a repeated rate, intervals increasing and decreasing with every few minutes. or hours. or seconds. she had honestly lost count at this point and didn't really care, she just attempted to keep her eyes squeezed shut and her jaw clenched as the sharpness and randomness of the pain continued.

aowyn didn't know a pain quite like this, no physical pain at least. she wondered if this was what it felt like to be struck by lightning, but honestly didn't want to know. there was an intense pressure at the base of her spine. she didn't move and if she did, a pained cry followed the movement. it really did hurt. she felt like she couldn't breathe, yet everything felt completely and utterly natural. her breath would hold after exhaling, and it wasn't long before instinct told her the first puppy had taken its breath, to which she sharply bent to pull it to her belly, remove the sack and warm it, and nudge it to her belly so it could begin feeding. the pain seemed to dissipate some after seeing the first pup, whether literally or she simply became enamored with it. she didn't really mind either way.

as the hours passed on, more pain followed, but as did more little bundles of sheer joy. though it was an incredibly uncomfortable and whine-filled process, every pup that followed the razor-tipped jab at her spine made it seem more worth it as it continued. how many were there now? two, three? she counted them again. no, four. the pain was still there no doubt, but her tail was whipping from side to side uncontrollably, caused by the four small creatures suckling at her teats. she had licked them dry and guided them to eat. her legs formed something of a protective semi-circle around them, to make sure they wouldn't wander about and fall out of the little nest she had made. the moss and leaves were stacked a little high for that though, but she simply worried.

the red femme wondered why such a beautiful thing had scared her so much. it had been a combination of them and other things. had she had a right to be so afraid? she had never experienced anything like it, but everything had come from instinct and it now seemed like an incredibly wonderful blessing rather than a horrid nightmare. she had been excited for their arrival, yet terrified at the same time. what if something had gone wrong? she needed to remember that it hadn't, though, and that there were four gorgeous little beings she had helped give life to now so close to her. she didn't feel so worried anymore, so scared, so... she didn't even know. she was above the clouds at the moment, greyish-yellow eyes glimmering in the dimness of the small cave she called a den.


"aowyn speaking" - #FFC1C1
"aowyn thinking"
"others speaking"
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NOTES: i'm thinking scout would want to come see the puppies and that rasalas would be in here too. but that's it for now, i think. i don't want a million people in this tiny cave at once. xD anyone else who wants to see the puppies can ask for a separate thread. also really hoping this thread being posted now doesn't make the puppies overdue. >>

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes til i touch the sky

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Rasalas had awoken the previous morning and simply knew that something was going on or would happen. The sensation had left the red brute anxious and fidgety; yet, nothing had proved him right. This simply concerned him more, causing his mind to wander over his siblings. 'What if they were in danger? Did they need me?' He stumbled over himself clumsily, his mind and body so distant from each other that he could hardly function. Despite never speaking of his sisters anymore, he missed them terribly. They had formed such a close bond with one another, they were true family that loved each other unconditionally. Rasalas never expected to have something so pure ever again. Even with his own family coming closer to the world every day, the brute felt a twinge of doubt pass through him. After all, there was no guarantee that the pups were one hundred percent his until they were born. 'Look at me doubting Lady Aowyn now, I am such a fool,' he felt ashamed for doubting the russet femme. Innocence dropped from her pores, she had to be telling the truth - within his heart he knew that she was. It was a struggle to grasp at the thought though, he was going to be a father! He simply wished that she had not ran away from Tassos.

The red female was growing dangerously close to giving birth and Rasalas' worry was growing as well. He could not help but think that something bad could happen to the sweet femme. He did not know how likely it was for her to be wounded or die during birth; if she did pass, certainly that meant his children would not survive as well. The Alpha's legs gave out, causing him to collapse onto the ground. Panting a few times the brute cautiously gathered himself and stood once again. The stress of this situation was slowly killing him, life was drifting from his once warm golden optics. 'Maybe I am not ready to accept the truth,' life despised him, it would only make sense that he would lose something close to him. Or the ones he loved would kill him in the end. Shaking slightly the Alpha made his way towards Aowyn's den, knowing that he needed to see her for himself. It would be the only way to potentially settle his mind, the only chance he had to ease the pain inside of him. Even as he headed towards her, time drifted in strange intervals - never consistent with what it used to be. For a few minutes the brute almost had to stop walking, for he feared falling once again.

But he pushed onward. She was worth every trial that he would face. This was his family. Despite that he had not officially taken her as his mate, they already were viewed together in his head. Although, he did wish that things were not so tense between them. He missed the night they had shared, the closeness he had shared with her that no other could comprehend. Paws pressed onward his subconscious needing to see her, ensure that she and the puppies were safe and sound. Fur began to lift along his back, showing the tension that was swarming chaotically just beneath his thick skin. He was tough, but that did not mean that he experienced no form of emotion. Rasalas had simply grown to control himself in a way that, as a puppy, he could not. Tail twitched fretfully behind him, as if it was a way for his mind to keep himself grounded upon this planet. Before the brute had realized it, he stood beneath the shady opening of her den - the place she had prepared for their offspring to first greet this world. Amber eyes darted about nervously for a few seconds, as if expecting it all to be a mirage.

Cautiously, he followed her scent trail and drew himself closer to the place Aowyn would be. At first, he hardly noticed the faint sounds in the distance. Audits erected and he began to feel weak and shaky once more, like a newborn walking for the first time. Could this truly be his reality? He inhaled sharply before turning to face the new mother and her puppies. Golden eyes glimmered with wonder and awe at the sight before them, could it be he truly had a family? A few minutes passed of silence, where his eyes simply dashed between the pups and their mother. They were the most beautiful creatures he had ever seen, something that was so divine he never believed it possible to exist on this planet. Without a second thought his tail began wagging vigorously and a twitch of a grin passed over his muzzle. "Lady Aowyn," his words were nearly silent and he was hardly sure that she heard them, "I have never seen anything so beautiful in my life." The words stumbled from his nervous muzzle faster than he realized, while his eyes latched onto hers. "You and your pups," he could feel his words hanging in the air like a sin. The Alpha was at a loss of words for this situation, he knew not what was the right or proper thing to say. "Have you named them?" his words oozed with his inner curiosity, genuinely craving her answer. His heart pounded loudly within his chest, this was real.

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grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down
i'd just stare out my window, dreaming of what could be and if i'd end up happy

AOWYN

Aowyn was elated beyond words, floating above the clouds and staring at her beautiful bundles with such immense joy and awe. She had never seen anything quite like it, all of the innocence and what she saw as sheer perfection laying right there at her stomach. It instilled such endless happiness within her and she could not bring up one negative thing about them, or of anything else. Her train of thought was focused solely on them and not on anything else. Her neck craned at something of a strange angle to nuzzle and gently lick each of them a few times more. In another part of her mind, she acknowledged she needed to call Rasalas to her so he could see his puppies as well, but she was unsure if he would be able to hear her from where she was laying within the caverns. For several minutes, she pondered what she could do to summon him without disturbing the puppies nestled comfortably at the soft, warm skin of her belly. Her thoughts were interrupted when his scent hit her nostrils, the sound of light footsteps against the sandy floor in her ears.

"Rasalas..." The femme was incredibly glad to see him, no thought of such terseness between them; it didn't exist to her anymore. He was here and that was all that mattered to her, alongside the pups suckling and giving light squeaks of protest when she shifted slightly into a more comfortable position. She wanted him here, and perhaps it was selfish, but she didn't want him to go or to be anywhere else. "Lady Aowyn," Her tail picked up speed, turning her gaze once more from the pups to him, "I have never seen anything so beautiful in my life." Neither had she, and she couldn't help but marvel at the small creatures over and over again. She'd never seen newborn pups, ever. Perhaps that was what scared her so much. Being pregnant had terrified her, as she had no one to tell her it would be okay, that everything would come out like this. It was completely foreign to her, as was the concept of emotions she felt towards the alpha, and she deeply feared the unknown. It had gotten her into trouble, yet brought her such a wonderful thing.

"You and your pups," The sentence slightly unsettled her, and she seemed to reciprocate instantly, "Our pups." Her tone was still incredibly gentle, but there was no stutter there, showing her certainty of such a fact. She knew what she wanted and this was it. This was her picture of her life and she clung to it happily. She still regretted running away as she had, found it a completely stupid impulse on her behalf and still didn't believe Rasalas had deserved such a thing from her or anyone; he deserved better, but she couldn't help adoring this picture she saw before her, wanted it. "Have you named them?" In all honesty, she had not pondered names for her children all that much. She had thought of such things occasionally in her spare time, but had spent most of her minutes attempting to not jostle the little creatures around within her belly. She gave a few blinks, and presented her answer to him, "N-Not yet... I w-wanted you h-here for it, t-too. H-Help me n-name them?" She wanted him there. He was the father, she was the mother, and she had no idea what she was doing.

Aowyn gazed at them fondly for a few moments more before reaching and nudging one of the females and one of the males, one lighter in coat color than the other, and hummed lightly, "M-Maybe Avalon...an-and Tacio...?" Both were names she had heard before from passersby in times past, and she quite liked the names for her daughter and son. The other two she would leave for Rasalas to name. She found it fair since she had chosen the first two, but also wanted his input for the matter. They weren't just her pups. They had created the four wolves before them and she thought it only normal they have equal say in their early lives. "M-Maybe Scout should l-look at them? I'm n-no shaman, and...and I w-want to m-make sure they're all o-okay..." Worry touched at the silvery-yellow in her eyes. The last thing she wanted to do was worry about her beautiful children. She did not know of Scout's recently named Beta status and simply named him from memory. He was a kind wolf and she trusted him to gaze at her pups all the same. She couldn't recall anyone else other than Kenley with some form of this kind of knowledge, but she did not know where the small female was. Hopefully, she would see her soon. For now, she wanted to focus on her family. Her ears twitched. She loved that word. Family.


"aowyn speaking" - #FFC1C1
"aowyn thinking"
"others speaking"
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WORD COUNT: 865 | TAGGED: @rasalas
NOTES: Maybe he can call for Scout to look at the pups and that's when he jumps in?

i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes til i touch the sky