Serenity At Its Finest (OPEN)

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Spirit glanced for a moment at Kastiel when he nudged her shoulder, and it made her feel better in some way. Strengthened, she supposed. It was strange what the single touch of a packmate could do for one's emotional and mental health. As for physical health, only a healer could do much on that part. She was all too glad to watch her beta approach the female in a calm and steady manner, welcoming her and licking her forehead in greeting. He offered her a place in the pack, which is what the tundra wolf had been hoping for to happen. This wolf deserved a home, and she honestly thought there was no better place to start again. Airila was a nice pack, though small, and it needed members, no matter what they could do to benefit the pack. Strengths and weaknesses didn't matter, only the tight bonds of pack members did. At least, that was how it played out in her mind.

She trotted over happily to Haze and flanked Kastiel again, touching her nose to her new packmate's for a moment, then retracted again to meet her gaze. "Then, welcome to the pack, Haze." Her ears perked up high and she listened closely as Kastiel asked her what it was that she could do, how she could be of use to the pack. Of course, to Spirit, every wolf, no matter what rank, was important to the pack and was essential no matter what it was they could or could not do. Haze began attempting to list off her abilities, which she didn't seem to think she had many of. It was obvious the female, for various reasons, did not have a very high self esteem. Spirit felt enlightened when she said she was willing to learn anything, though. She felt she could help out in that aspect, as she would do with any one else.

Her gold eyes turned on Kastiel and she brought out her proposal, "I could teach her." She looked back to Haze. "I was raised to fight, so I could teach you how, but that's your choice. I'd love to do it if you wouldn't mind, but, again, that would be your decision, not mine." Spirit hoped she would somehow be involved in all of this. She wanted to be involved, as these were her packmates. After all, she couldn't be the only wolf with a fighter's rank in the pack, though she doubted that Torio, Kastiel, and Valmai couldn't fight. She was taught to fight from an early age, because it was often believed that, if you could not fight, then you were useless to the pack as a defender. If so, then the ones who could not fight either became the hunters, or the omegas, but the omegas outweighed the hunters, because hunters were favored and one would only get that rank if the alpha like the wolf.

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[bg=000000][atrb=background,http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/ff153/Lumarinam/kastiel-background.png] Kastiel could sense her trembling, feeling beneath the course tongue that brushed against the fur above her head. She was not use to company, or so he was beginning to wonder. Had she lead the majority of her life as a rogue? Did she not know the compassion and loyalty that came with friendship? He shook the thoughts away with a mental flick of his head. Maybe these questions creeping in his mind where right, or maybe they where wrong. Either way it would not affect his actions – he would offer her a place here, he would look out for her and show her friendship. Before she had been a stranger and he had treated her with caution. He trusted his judgment however, and he felt that he could trust her. If she accepted a place here then she would fall under his protection, and she would never have to worry again – he would see to that. She gave her qualities, and her own opinion of her qualities? “Can’t do much? Haze, what I’m hearing makes you an admirable wolf, one I would be more then happy to see fit into this pack. If your loyal, and willing, have a want to learn – believe me, you’re going to fit right in” He promised her softly, the smile on his mussel was soft, gentle and compassionate. Caring for his sister had taught him a vital habit – to put others before himself, even if that meant putting his life on the line. As soon as Haze realised she was safe and protected with the welcoming and friendly members of this pack the better. That she would always have someone to talk to in Kastiel, just as Spirit could. He took a step back to include Spirit in his vision, to offer her a smile these wolves – they where the world to him. Spirit had moved to flank Kastiel once more, a step to his side. She welcomed the new member of the pack even more warmly then he did – if that was possible. It seemed Spirit had also learned to fight at an early age. Maybe she hadn’t had a younger sister relying on her every step of the way, forcing her to go that little bit further, catch that little bit more, and fight that little bit harder – but he didn’t doubt for a moment that she could stand up for herself, fight her battles. That knowledge did nothing to ease the protective net he had mentally weaved around her. He would fight for her, even if she did not want him to. Her offer was a kind one, and he looked once more to Haze. “Sounds like a good idea – and of course I will always make time to help you with anything you need. That goes to both of you” He promised gently – no matter how snowed in he got with his Beta jobs, protecting and overseeing the pack for Toiro, he would always be there for them, some way or another.

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Haze felt her skin get hot once more under her silver fur, but it wasn't embarrassment, it was more like bashfulness. Nobody had ever called her an admirable wolf, and especially not one that would fit in with a group. Her parents had given up on her within the first couple of months after her birth. Her brothers, Brite and Kenzie, were the dominant of the litter while she was out-casted to become an omega. Haze's fate had been planned from pup hood. It was only after the hundreds of beatings she had faced that she decided to make a choice of her own by leaving the pack. That was the first time that the young wolf had decided her own fate. And now she was being welcomed into a new pack, but she felt happy. Now she just had to hope that she would not relive her childhood. No, not hope. She would choose to not allow herself to drift back into an omega's life.

A determined glint shone in her eyes right before they widened as Spirit touched noses with her. She almost pulled back but stopped herself for fear of being seen as rude. But when Spirit pulled back to meet her gaze, she wasn't sure if she was relieved from the lack of touch or if she longed for it even more. Her grey eyes shut for a moment, the conflicting feelings clashing in her head. She felt almost sick but swallowed the conflict and sickness before opening her eyes and giving a soft smile.

Haze perked her ears with interest as she listened to Spirit's proposition. She had never considered herself that much of a fighter and had rejected the lessons offered by her childhood pack. But after living alone in the wild she figured she needed to learn at least some basics of fighting. It would be hard work, and she knew she wouldn't enjoy it at first. Unlike many wolves she would have to grow to like fighting, and she was willing to give it a shot. "I suppose I could try learning how to fight. I got to warn you though, I'm pretty bad." She laughed lightly.

"And thank you so much for welcoming me into the pack. I will make you proud, I promise."

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"Don't put yourself down, Haze. I'm sure you can do it!" Spirit smiled cheerily at her, hoping she wouldn't think so badly of herself in the near future. Of course, Spirit would be one to never stop until someone got it right, especially if she was trying to teach them something and they didn't think they could do it. She had done it often with pups in her previous pack, attempt to teach them how to fight, and mostly succeed. Because of older fighters in the pack, the pups would often be put down and become discouraged, leaving her to encourage them by showing them they could fight. Perhaps that would be the case of her spars with Haze, but at that point only time would tell if that were true. She wondered if she was willing to do it, even though she said she had been, but many had given up on Spirit because she was overbearing at some points.

When she thought of her old pack, her face saddened for a few moments, before she realized she was showing the emotion she did not like showing to others. As quick as she could, she covered it up with a stoic face, wiping the saddened emotion from her expression. She looked between the other two, hoping they had not noticed the face she had made. She smiled at them brightly to cover it up further, showing her white teeth in a cheery way. "What shall we do now?" Her question was merely curious, now that they had accepted Haze into the pack, what was there for them to do? Return to camp, most likely, or patrol the borders. Either worked for her.

However, Spirit hoped that just because she had sneezed twice, that Kastiel would not send her back to the dens just to rest. She didn't want to, she had the urge to patrol some more. Another urge prevented itself: showing Haze around the territory. It was something she could be of use to, especially since Kastiel was more than likely busy. He was the beta and, while pondering the thought, she wondered what it was like to be one. Her thoughts were scattered just slightly, but she wasn't sure why. Her thoughts were scattered often, but for the moment she attempted to focus on the matter at hand, on Haze and on Kastiel.

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[bg=000000][atrb=background,http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/ff153/Lumarinam/kastiel-background.png] Kastiel’s upbringing had left him a naturally protective wolf, but he had never made attachments to another soul before, not like he had done with Dust. To look at these two she-wolves, to know that Spirit had a bit of sadness in her past, and that what ever Haze had gone through had left her self-conscious... he took a breath and felt like his heart had grown all that more – room enough to fit these two friends, pack mates. He knew he would always do what he could to watch over them, and thoughts of leaving them in this pack for a period pf time without himself, or there Alpha, left him feeling worried passing that off for now, he moved to nuzzle Haze’s head, and then Spirit’s. These where his family now – maybe he would find Dust again one day, maybe he would not. Either way it would never again be just him and Dust; Shyia had become his home. Haze promised she would give it her best, although she warned them it might be disastrous. His smile was still upon his mussel, sweet, gentle. Kastiel had never smiled so much since losing Dust, as he had within this pack. “I know you will Haze, I know you will” He murmured gently to her, words of encouragement, yet they seemed to say no matter the outcome he believed in her. Spirit seemed all for, well, team spirit. Her words echoed through the cavern and spoke in high spirits to the newest member of the pack. Kastiel knew that between Spirit, Val (He knew the talkative older wolf he had befriended would be just as welcoming) Haze would not be so self-confident for long. She had found a home here, and Kastiel and the others had become her family – the supportive, loving kind. The next words uttered where from Spirit, a question, and one that seemed directed to Kastiel. He looked thoughtfully at her, turned his gaze to Haze, and then back again. “We can always go for a walk, show haze around. But Spirit? If I think your getting a cold, you’re resting, no arguments. I need healthy wolves to keep this pack running, and if you keep on going when your feeling sick, your increasing the chance of us catching it, and of making yourself worse, so you can’t do much for even longer to help the pack” His words where filled with almost cold logic, but his eyes, looking at his friend, clearly stated ‘And I can’t stand the idea of running yourself out’ He just had a feeling if he put it that way she would be less likely to listen, then if he said it the logical way. And in terms of showing Haze around – he could spare a little more of the day to ensure the newest wolf felt welcome. After all – it was the wolves that made the pack.

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Haze wagged her tail slightly as Kastiel murmured his words of encouragement. She then grinned at Spirit, happy that she would be able to spend time with this cheerful and optimistic female. But the young female could still feel a doubt in her mind, almost throbbing as it tried to bring back the cruel memories upon her. She worried so much that she would let this pack down and end up being tossed back out into a loner's world. Haze shook her head gently, as if to silence the doubtful thoughts.

Her eyes lit up at the mention of getting to see the rest of the pack's territory. She was beyond curious as to what else this pack had claimed for she herself had not had a chance to see much of the territory except for the beaches and this cave. However, Haze had crossed through the neighboring lands of Tiayr which was pretty uneventful as she had not seen a single wolf yet she had caught smells of some. The tales of the Gaziche Gypsies had not yet reached her ears so to her, Tiayr was just another land full of loners.

She smiled a little more as Kastiel agreed to let them go and see some of the territory. Haze tried to stifle a laugh as Kastiel warned Spirit that if he thought she was getting sick that he would send her back to the dens. She thought that he was very protective and it was almost as though Spirit was a pup that needed to be watched carefully. A small laugh came out at this but she shut her mouth quickly, afraid that she would have offended somebody. She suddenly felt ashamed to have laughed at these wolves which had just welcomed them into their home. The silvery female lowered her head again as she muttered, "Sorry . . .". But she perked up fairly quickly as she remembered that she would get to see the borders of the territory.

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Spirit smiled as Kastiel nuzzled her head and she smiled at him, almost wanting to return it. However, she would have, but it was his next words that caused her to frown at him and flatten her ears, dropping her tail sadly. She did not want to be rendered useless by sitting in the dens and resting just to rid herself of a mere cold. His words, though, and the way he put them made sense to her. It was logical and a good reason for her to rest, but Spirit was a stubborn female and, as much as she respected her friend, she had the major urge to disagree with him on it. She heard Haze laugh a little, then apologize quickly for doing so. She turned her gentle gold gaze on her, "No need to apologize, Haze."

Spirit turned once more to Kastiel, her expression becoming sour again. "As for you, my friend, that's not fair!" She whined at him, ears pressed against her head and her golden eyes showed her displeasure. "I am a warrior of the pack, it's my job to protect it! How can I do that by laying in the den like a lazy bag of bones?" Of course, that made sense to her and in her own way, it was a good enough excuse to stay away from not doing anything. She hated not being able to do something just because she was deemed useless for the moment by others. She didn't want to sit in her den and sleep the days away while everyone else was busy and at work doing what they could for the pack. The very thought of it made her feel horrible already.

She pouted at him, "I am fine, I swear! Please don't make me go back to the dens, Kastiel!" She only argued with him because she was stubborn enough to want to do her job while she wasn't feeling well, and she simply wanted to annoy him, as much as she liked him as her friend. That was her way of being playful, of the pup she felt like she was being treated as. In that moment, she knew she would most likely be scolded for the way she had talked to her beta, but it was much too late for that now. The bad feeling was only added on to when she saw the look in his eyes that clearly told her he didn't want her to be sick and that he would hate to see her as such. She gave herself a light, scolding snort and looked away, too ashamed to hold her companion's gaze.

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[bg=000000][atrb=background,http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/ff153/Lumarinam/kastiel-background.png] He watched as she flattened her ears, lowered her tail, and looked the picture of upset at him. It caused Kastiel to frown – he didn’t like upsetting her, but he was the highest ranking wolf here and if he had to play the bad guy in Spirit’s eyes in order to watch out for her health and well being, then he would. Haze laughed, clearly amused by the two wolves, causing Kastiel to bite back a sigh. He didn’t want to make a circus or a scene out of it, but it felt like it would turn that way if he tried to enforce it. He would let it lie for now, but if her health degraded in anyway then too bad, he would put her in her place and make her rest. Spirit was the first to tell Haze she need not apologise, and Kastiel closed his mouth – no point in mimicking Spirit’s words, she had bet him to it. However after talking to the newest pack member her eyes returned to Kastiel once more, annoyance in her eyes, a sour expression on her face. Hay! That wasn’t fair, he was just doing his best by the pack and it’s members. He realised then that being Beta wasn’t just about putting all his energy into border patrols, hunting, and organising, it was about juggling the emotions of the members in the best way he could to keep everyone happy. There was a saying there, through – you couldn’t make everyone happy. He had a lot to learn ahead of him, and looking into Spirit’s eyes he knew now was a good a time as any. “If I must be unfair, Spirit, then I must. If you become so sick that you will only get in the way and get worse if you do not rest, then I will send you to the dens. I advice you don’t challenge my authority” Although normally it was the Alpha’s position to prove his worth to the pack, kastiel, being second in command may come across a time where he will have to prove himself as well, in more ways then running himself to the ground to ensure the safety of this pack. He only hoped that that day was far into the future. These wolves where his family, he did not want to fight, but if there was no order, then there was no pack at all... She seemed to scold him with her eyes and words, and it hurt, it actually did. She turned away now, head held high as through she was too good to look at him. Had he just been a member he might have turned then and stepped back from this, from the knowledge that he had earned the dislike of this admirable wolf. He was not just a member however, he was a Beta, he bit back his own emotions and raised himself to his full height. “Very well, Spirit, if you do not wish to act like a member of this pack we will go on without you. Haze, if you would follow me?” He turned to the other wolf, softening his gaze, hoping to ease whatever discomfort she might feel being in the middle of what he and Spirit had started. He took a step forward, and turned once, giving Spirit one chance to make amends for the insults she layed upon the packs beta. Lucky for her he wasn’t the time to jump into battle for hurt feelings, he could only hope that – if she did nothing now – that being left behind would give her time enough to consider her wrongs.

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The fidgety femme bit her lip as Spirit began to mouth off to Kastiel. Although she did feel a bit of admiration towards the female for speaking her mind, the whole scenario began to soak into her as anxiety. She was unsure how this beta normally handled things like this but she knew that with her past pack that simple quarrels sometimes ended with an ear torn off. Not to say that her old pack was very similar to this one as far as she knew, but the anxiety showed no signs of wavering.

All of the amusement Haze felt towards the scene was gone as she felt more uncomfortable by the second. Memories of her brothers fighting for dominance and the daily physical and mental beatings started to resurface in her mind as she was reminded of why she hated conflict. She started to go through a list of names of those she had ever seen fighting or had fought with her, and her eyes widened as she realized that the list was getting long. Her mind unconsciously burned the names Spirit and Kastiel into the list, though she tried to feel relieved that this wasn't a physical fight, at least yet.

She listened quietly to Kastiel as he reminded Spirit of his rank in the pack and held her breath in the hopes that this may resolve the situation. But her hopes decreased a little as the female pouted and turned away from the beta. Haze opened up her mouth to say something but realized that it was not up to her and that this was the beta's decision. But she couldn't help but gently mouth the word, stop.

Kastiel then spoke his decision, leaving Haze staring with her mouth open. She closed her mouth and smiled weakly when the beta turned to her, but she still felt bad that Spirit would possibly be left behind. But Haze still followed Kastiel, worried that she may get left behind as well. When the beta stopped to look back at Spirit, the young wolf stopped as well and looked back with a sort of willing hope that the warrior may make amends.

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With each word that came from Kastiel's mouth, Spirit felt more and more ashamed for her actions, wanting to take back all that she had said and done. There she had gone again, running her mouth and having pissed off a higher authority. There she had gone...being useless again. She cringed and turned farther away from him, each thing being said stinging her like salt water in a fresh wound. They were supposed to be good, but they certainly caused her pain. She bared her teeth at nothing, hoping to shed off some of that shame she felt by putting pressure on some body part. She tried biting her tongue, though all that did for her was bite through the skin and cause it to bleed. She ignored it, returning her gaze to the beta's back as he walked away to Haze, who had mouthed for her to stop.

Spirit quickly looked down when he looked towards her, ears pressing tightly against her head. Her tail was low, beginning to tuck between her legs. The words of her former, supposed to be mate rang in her head, 'She's useless and pathetic, there's no need for her.' The regret hung in her throat and she found it hard to force the words out of her mouth, but they were needed and wanted. "I...I'm...s-sorry..." It was barely a whisper, and she was relieved that she had told him. She didn't want the beta to hate her, it was definitely the last thing she wanted from the wolves in this pack.

She felt another sneeze come on, but forced it to stay within her sinuses, even though it caused her pain and gave her a slight headache. Avoiding their gazes, she made way to stand beside them. She left something out when she had apologized. The fact that she had challenged his authority was because she had done it often to her father, but he had never snapped back at her for it. However, she was in a different place now and this wasn't her father's pack. He wasn't in charge and she wasn't the heir to the leader. As different as it all was, she was not used to it and she had made a mistake, a stupid one. She muttered the words under her breath and directed them at herself, making sure they wouldn't hear, "You pathetic, useless idiot, Spirit..." She managed to look in Kastiel's direction, but kept her eyes on his shoulder, "If it is your wish that I return to the dens...then so be it."



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[bg=000000][atrb=background,http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/ff153/Lumarinam/kastiel-background.png] Having turned his attention to Haze in order to indicate to the other that she should follow him, he got a good look at how she was taking in everything that had passed between the two. He was somewhat ashamed, wondering if there was some way he could have stopped this before it had gone this far. She was a new member, eager to join a new place one that could become her home. She had joined, but it wasn’t too late to scatter, there little disagreement could have scared her off and left her without a home once more. He felt his heart sink knowing it had not been fair on Haze. As he had hoped – begged inside his own head, words fell from Spirit’s mouth now, hesitant, ashamed. She was telling him she was sorry. He turned back to her now, the defence that had turned his face to stone melted away. It was barely a whisper her words of apology, but he had listened so hard for it he could not have missed it. In fact, he had wanted to hear it so bad his mind might have fabricated them regardless if she had not spoken at all. He found himself turning to her, needing confirmation that she had spoken, and it was not just the want of his mind. A lot of mistakes had been made here, and he wished there was some way to take back the time and change it. “It’s okay Spirit, its okay, I know you just want to help, and continue helping. But it’s my job to look out for you, if we run you to the ground and you can’t take it because your sick, then that’s my fault, that’s on me” He was looking at her intently now, he needed her to understand why had pursued this despite her displeasure, that he was looking out for her and not just looking for reason to argue, or wanting to come out on top. “Will you come with us Spirit, and show Haze around?” He asked now, and if she agreed he would take that to be the end of this disagreement, he would consider it forgotten and wish for there friendship to be as strong as it had before, if not stronger. He did not want to lose her friendship, right from the start he had admired Spirit.

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The she wolf could feel Kastiel's gaze upon her and she began to feel worried that she would be seen as a weakling that couldn't face problems. When she left her family pack she had promised herself to never let another wolf pity her. Her head lifted, a more firm expression on her face. She tried not to make herself look mean, but she was starting to get frustrated with herself and how she couldn't handle small conflicts. Haze bit her lip to stop herself from growling at her stress. She also looked away from Kastiel in an effort to hide any sort of discomfort and directed her attention back to Spirit.

The femme listened hopefully for Spirit's answer, suddenly not wanting to be alone with only one wolf. She felt as though she was blaming the beta for her low self esteem but she worried if she put any more stress on herself she might explode. Her face suddenly started to relax at Spirit's apology, but there was something in the apology that was familiar. The feeble and desperate voice it was spoken in reminded Haze of herself when she was back in her old pack. She had messed up a hunt by springing forward too soon and had nearly had her tail tip bitten off by the alpha, that being her father, but she had pleaded enough to get off with only a couple cuts and bruises. Back in the present, Haze's expression hardened once more.

She glanced back at Kastiel as he asked Spirit if she wanted to join them again. Haze wished that the femme would join them as she worried that if left alone with Kastiel she might become closed off even though all he had done was look at her. But to her she felt pity radiating off him in waves, causing her muscles to tense and relax over and over. She struggled to focus on Spirit's answer.

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Spirit was glad to hear his answer, glad to hear that she hadn't ruined or screwed anything up. She hated having certain things ruined and messed up because she was the one to have done something to it. A natural reaction among most would have been to simply nod and agree to the beta's words, but she could not help but be childish and argue with him. When she was alone, it had been her way of irritating and distracting others so she could avoid a fight. Or if a male was attempting to order her around, it was just her way to send him off, though at that point she had come to forgotten that she was not alone anymore, that she was no longer in her old pack. In this place, even she knew authority would be difficult to handle, even though she knew how to respect it. It was just in her newest instinct to challenge it, as it had not been around for a year of her life.

Finally able to meet his gaze, Spirit gave him a smile, "If I get sick, that's not your fault. I'm the one who got scared when you showed up and fell in the water." It that sense, she was right. Had she not gotten scared or put her paw over the surface of the water, she certainly would not have attempted to place her foot on the illusion of a hard surface the water created and fallen in. If she had not have fallen in, then she more than likely would not have gotten sick if she had not have gotten out right away. Getting sick would be her fault, not Kastiel's. She attempted to make sure he knew that, knew that it was not his fault that she had taken to the water and stayed in long enough only to get out and begin sneezing. That was a fault of her own.

She noticed Haze's expression harden a few times and was curious as to what the young femme was thinking about, perhaps a memory the two others had triggered by their bickering. She didn't press the matter, but bounced over to Haze happily. "Sure thing!" She answered her beta. "Let's go, Haze! We have a lot to look at!" Spirit nudged the female's shoulder in a friendly way and began trotting up the winding tunnel towards the entrance again, excited to show their new friend around the territory.

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[bg=000000][atrb=background,http://i241.photobucket.com/albums/ff153/Lumarinam/kastiel-background.png] As Kastiel’s gaze fell upon Haze, she seemed to harden her expressions, showing little emotion on her face. Kastiel couldn’t help but feel there was something defensive about it. He couldn’t blame her, after the argument that had just come to pass between himself and Spirit, he was the Beta here, it shouldn’t surprise him that she would look defensive against him. He couldn’t help the lowering of his heart, like he had let her down somehow, like it was his fault for not handling it better. Haze’s start into the pack was nowhere near as delightful as it should have been for a new member, and he couldn’t change that now. Instead he gave her an almost shy smile of encouragement. Spirit held his attention now, arguing the point once more, but in a less defensive and a more friendly manner. She was intent to say it would not be his fault, but Kastiel knew beyond a doubt it would. The lives of these wolves, for as long as he was Beta, was in his hands. Sure, Toiro was his boss, had the final say, and he trusted his friend to make the right choices for these wolves and would never challenge him. It didn’t less the responsibility Kastiel felt. Maybe it was all those years where Dust relied totally on him for survival that gave him such a sense of responsibility. Whatever it was, it was there, and if anything happened to a single wolf in this pack he would never forgive himself. Spirit moved towards Haze now, somehow bringing herself to be open and friendly towards the newcomer. Something Kastiel always had trouble doing, letting himself go like that, he had to fight every muscle in his body to unlock, which generally only locked them more. Instead, calm and collected he began to move through the cave towards the exit, grateful for Spirit, knowing she would be a good friend to Haze. The Beta was always more comfortable watching from the sidelines anyway, defending from physical threats, or simply being there as a shoulder. All the in-between bits of a friendship always seemed just out of his reach. “Alright you two, lets go see Shyia”

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Haze smiled at Spirit's nudge and trotted happily behind her. She felt as though she was being given the chance to replace her less-then-satisfactory childhood with the time she spent in this pack. Her muscles had relaxed and her face sported a cheerful expression. She liked this female, and she couldn't wait for her first lesson in fighting despite her distaste for conflict.

Haze then began to wonder if she would ever find another place in the pack other than a subordinate. She knew that even if she learned how to fight she would never allow herself to become a warrior. She wasn't too good at hunting, but she didn't hate it and the femme was willing to work on it. Haze liked the idea of supporting the pack members instead of them struggling to take care of her. Her thoughts slowly began to shift from dreams of fitting in to ideas of what the rest of Shyia looked like. Had she chosen a good place to live? She started to worry over whether this place had enough food to support the pack or if the territory was too dangerous. The femme pushed those thoughts aside and reminded herself that she had found a pack that looked like it was ready to care for her and she should be happy to have just found that.

Haze looked back at Kastiel, and moved to the side in order to allow him to step up in the front and lead the way. She felt as though she had put up too much of a wall between herself and the beta, the wolf that had willingly let her into the pack. The silver femme could feel his presence as more of a guardian and a leader then a friend. She frowned, knowing she didn't want to close herself off from him. Haze bounded up to him and gave him a quick lick on the ear as a way to say sorry for the way she had responded to the small quarrel.