Post by Rain on Oct 20, 2015 10:43:02 GMT -5
SO guys, I don't know how many of you read the news on the cbox, but my wedding had to be canceled/postponed. We will be married next year, but there is no set date yet. My fiance suddenly lost his job and he still has not found any and the stress we went through even made our relationship extremely rocky and we decided for the best of our relationship, sanity and health that we will not get married until next year. It was not an easy decision, lots of tears and sadness were involved, but we feel a liiiittle bit better now that we do not have the wedding looming over us to add up on our problems. We will take this time now to rebuild our relationship and to practically start over, and for him to find a stable job.
All of this ordeal has made me sick; I have barely eaten, I have lost more than 20lbs in all of this and maybe more, I feel weaker every day, and I really, really hope all of this has not made my thyroid act up again, but I'm afraid that is the case. For those who don't know, I survived [yes, survived] an ordeal with my thyroid and my hyperthyroidism and we got it under control, but it has been acting up again. I need time for myself and to heal my heart over the many things that happened in all these recent months, and I need to rest and to eat well. I need to sleep, relax and just take some time for myself. Christmas is coming up so that is making me a little bit more optimistic about everything I've been going through lately so yeah. (I love Christmas quite a lot. It's my favorite holiday. It always cheers me up 1000%)
I will take some time to heal my relationship with my fiance, and to heal myself. I really, really need time to fix myself up because trust me guys, it has not been easy and in many moments I thought I could not do it. So keep me in your prayers guys, I love you all unconditionally and completely. I may pop in and work on graphics and posts when I feel like it, but it will not be something constant, and now you know what's up if you guys see me disappear suddenly. Thank you for everything guys, you all have been supportive and you guys are truly the best. Never change. <3