Accepting Reality (Kiva, Kayi, Tala)

[Kiva]

The wolf walked slowly, though with a steady pace. Her belly was swollen, marking the fourth time she would give birth. She was six, well past her prime, and had already given birth to a total thirteen puppies. She had also adopted three pups shortly after giving birth to her second litter, giving her a whopping sixteen children to care for, teach, and look after. However, not once did she mind doing so. There was absolutely nothing in the entire world that the silver wolf loved more than being a mother. She had always been very motherly and protective in nature and raising pups simply felt right to her. It was something she hoped she could continue doing for as long as she should live but she knew that with each year she grew older, her chances of having a successful liter fell a little more.

As she made her way farther inland, she couldn’t help but think that this litter was completely different from all the others she had been blessed with. It was the first litter she would have since the fire and starting a brand new life and that only meant she would have to accept the fact that things would truly never again be the same. With all three of her past litters, she had been beyond excited, elated really. But with this one, her emotions were a whirlwind of ups and downs. Yes, she was excited, but at the time, she wished she wasn’t having pups, at least not in a new pack with a new male without any of her family being there. The pups would forever be reminders of things that happened and if the rules of her bloodline held true, at least one of these pups would be born with a crescent and the idea of one of them being born with her brother’s mark was more than she could take and a stabbing pain filled her heart, causing her to whimper aloud.

Off in the distance, she could see her destination. It was an old worn down boat, similar to the ones she had seen before when two legged creatures drove her pack away from their territory. It was sure to offer ample hiding spots and that was what she was looking for. She had always gone off away from everyone when she had her pups and this time would be no different. In fact, this time, more than all the others, she definitely didn’t want anyone finding her. She knew she would be emotional and the last thing she wanted was to have to deal with another wolf.

@kayi Tala

[Tala]

She had been here before winter took hold of the earth and drove the good prey away. She met Thanatos. He saved her life, a complete stranger and was so very sweet. Walking along as she replayed the meeting in her mind, she wondered if he found what he was looking for. Hopefully he didn't stray back into the pack boundaries and came to some harm. Although she did have a tiny hope to see him again. He made her relax to some extent and it was nice to talk to him. 

She wasn't as hopeless as she was then for now she had hunted with the pack and forged a sisterly bond with the angelic Kayi. She was still terrified of her Alpha but had not seen him since he took her, branded her with his seed. She would count her blessings and hopefully stay off his radar. But since she was certain she had conceived from him that may not be a possibility one day. One day her secret that she never breathed a word to anyone about...would be revealed and she was scared of what he consequences would be. Maybe he would show her favor of her young were to his liking.....maybe....

Walking alongside her new 'sister' but Tala was caught up in her thoughts, so it was quite sometime before she registered a somewhat familiar scent. Kiva, the leader of the hunt. Tala remembered she wanted to get to know her better as well, perhaps learn from the experienced female. A moment of bravery, she looked at the coral eyes of Kayi and motioned with her head in the direction of the scent. Asking silently if she would like to join her in going to meet up with Kiva.

Turning her paws towards the scent, she started to feel a bit nervous just walking up to someone she hardly knew. But with Kayi by her side, she believed everything would be ok. They agreed to support each other and she knew they would always be there for one another.

It wasn't long before Kiva was seen heading towards the old abandoned pike of lumber that posed a mystery to the younger female, she never had seen the likes of it before. 

Once she was closer, she saw how heavy Kiva's belly was and wondered if she should even trespass on her space. Frozen in mid stride as her mind shuffled through the possible answers, Tala just watched Kiva progress onward. What should she do? Minty green eyes looked over at the pretty wolf next to her, "Do you think it's alright if we go up to her?"

Kiva @kayi

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Two white bodies, similar to spiritual entities that walked across the varied terrain, walked together in silence but harmony. Tala and Kayi had just had a beautiful reunion, in which Kayi had spoken to Tala about her past and why was she in this place, out of all places. She found Kairos strange, scary… and she stood out amongst the wolves that surrounded her, which in turn did not help her at all at hiding. Every wolf that looked at her found her awe-inspiring, opening their maws to gasp for air as they saw her walk by. Another wolf would have taken advantage of that to fill up their ego, but Kayi only felt humbled. She did not do anything to deserve her outer beauty, and she did not know if she had to consider it a blessing. But… there was one wolf that in such a short time, she had already seen past her pink eyes and her pure white coat, and she was walking next to her in comfortable silence.

As time passed by, she began to see a boat in the distance, and with it, came a scent embedded in the wind. Kayi lifted her head and sniffed the air and looked at Tala quickly. It smelled like Kiva, the huntress with the pretty crescent moon marking on her face, which Kayi had gained a sense of admiration for. "Do you think it's alright if we go up to her?" "I think we should check to see if she's alright or if she needs any help." She replied softly, walking over to where the silver wolf had walked to, her shy voice broke through the silence to see if Kiva was alright. Hoping not to disturb the female, she walked quietly and spoke softly to avoid startling her. "Are you okay, Kiva?"

Kiva Tala

[Kiva]

Step after step, thoughts continued to race through the silver wolf’s worried mind. Her newest thought being would she get in trouble for having the pups off of the pack’s mainland? When she joined, nothing was stated that there was a specific place where females had to give birth and having been an alpha herself, she knew that would have been the time to speak of such rules. However, she also knew she hadn’t told anyone where she was going or how long she’d be so even though she was still in the territory belonging to Kairos’, there could be some wolves still looking for her. But, she told herself with a deciding nod, if trouble were to come her way, she would deal with it but for her own well being, this would be where she delivered her fourth litter.

Her mind was also on two wolves she had previously met. They were both young, both ironically the same age as her second and third litter and they both also looked as if they could have been born from that litter with their colors and appearances. One of them even had the name of her old pack and from the moment she met them, she had sworn to protect them. She wanted to take them under her wing but she knew they may or may not be interested in such a thing so she told herself she would let them decide. It was then that she realized why she had started thinking about them. She stopped mid stride, relaxing her form and smiled sweetly, not looking over her shoulder. “There’s no reason to be shy,” she called out, “I won’t hurt you Tala and Kayi,” she recognized their scents instantly and was immediately thankful for their company. She also wasn’t surprised to see them together as she had known at the time of the hunt that they would likely be quick to make friends.

Kiva nodded to the young wolf’s question, not leading on to the depressed feelings that had washed over her when she first realized it was time. “I am fine my dear, thank you for asking,” she offered another thankful smile and glanced back over her shoulder waiting for Tala to catch up before she continued walking. “It is actually time for me to give birth,” she told them with an anxious smile as she started walking again. Normally she would not have been nervous but this was not a normal circumstance and the fact she didn’t know how she would react worried her. Once she made it to the boat’s entrance she stopped and looked at both of the young wolves. “You two can stay and help or just stay and give me some company but if it’s a scene you’d rather not see, I understand completely.”

@kayi Tala

[Tala]

She let Kayi lead the way, watching the little wolf bound onward as she walked behind. Still a little unsure about this, but when she heard Kiva's cheerful greeting, her steps quickened to catch up. Tala already respected this wolf, Kiva seemed kind and worthy of a respect that wasn't coupled with fearful reverence but friendship. 

Following them to the strange pile of wood, Tala looked around cautiously as her eyes and nose inspected the structure  but she was taken out of that mind set when Kiva offered for them to stay and help. "I would like to assist you if I can." Tala knew she would be better off knowing what to expect when her birthing time came. She had no idea what would happen. 

The quiet female looked to see if Kayi felt the same. Then her mind wandered briefly, trying to picture what Kiva's pup would be like once they arrived. Would they look like her? Or whomever the father was?  She tilted her head in thought , was the father Goliath?

She remained silent as it was certainly not her place to ask. Perhaps she could guess once she saw the newborns. 

"Is it hard?" She asked quietly without really knowing she was speaking aloud. What was she in store for? Tala adored pups, but she didn't know if she would be a good mother. When she was pup sitter in her old pack, they were taken away to early for her to know. Would her own pups be turned against her like all the others? So many questions! She wanted to be happy to have something to call her own, but trauma from the past didn't always allow her to be.

She shook her head, this was not the time to worry about it. She was here to help Kiva and that is all that should matter. This was a happy time. An honor to be allowed to witness it alongside Kayi, a smile then hovered within her dark muzzle as minty eyes shifted from one to the other. A blessing.


Kiva @kayi

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Pink ey.es looked at the scene quietly, and began to think about her own future. Was this something that she was going to live through in a year from now? Apparently, Kairos was all about having p.ups, birthing legends and forming strong warriors… at least, it was the vibe that Kayi was getting from the place. She sometimes felt out of place, strange… but, was she prepared to be part of the legacy? Was she already in the plans of those above her to give birth to legends? She did not know, and she did not know if she was ready for it. The thought alone of being with a giant and giving birth to its kin was already terrifying, and even more the aspect of birthing the little giants. Her heart raced for a second, and her breathing became uneven for a short period of time… but she focused on Kiva and Tala, trying to concentrate on what was about to come.

Kayi listened to the older fem.aes talking, and her fear came back from nowhere when she heard Tala asking Kiva if what she was going through was hard. Kiva's swollen stomach proved that it was going to be painful, and Kayi was even getting goosebumps at the thought of what was going to happen. The albino knew that the silver beauty had to be in multiple levels of pain, so she remained quiet and decided to be there for her, comforting her just in case she needed it. She knew how amazing it felt sometimes to have quiet comfort of friends, so she decided to give it and wait to see what would happen. Alas, she did not know what to say in this situation, because she had never seen anyone giving birth--it was a thing she had never witnessed in her short life, and it was surely a thing that she did not want to see. But for some odd reason, be it fate or life preparing her for what was about to come when she grew up, she was here today, about to see something that would either scar her emotionally, or it would make her feel curious about nature and what it had to offer… she knew life had much more for her in store. She just had to wait.

Tala Kiva Sorry for the wait and the short reply!

[Kiva]

Even though the silver wolf's original plan was to get as far away from all other wolves as possible and remain that way for the first few weeks after she gave birth, she was extremely thankful for the appearance of Tala and Kayi. The fact that she had two wolves so similar in both appearance and age to her own pups, calmed her nerves and made her feel a small sense of welcomed nostalgia.  She waited patiently for the two young wolves to reply to her question and to her pleasant surprise, they both said they wanted to stay and help. She definitely wasn't going to argue with them.

Despite her answer to stay, Kiva could tell the young albino was hesitant and nervous, likely imaging herself in Kiva's place. She reached down and nuzzled her comfortingly, though no audible words were spoken. She had no need to speak aloud about her worries and she didn't want to risk embarrassing her. When Tala spoke, Kiva's ears perked with interest as she thought about the response. " I'm not going to say that it doesn't hurt and that it isn't uncomfortable but, it depends on your state of mind more than anything. If you have a bad attitude about it and over think everything then yes, it will hurt. But, if you think about the miracle that is happening and the precious little ones that you are bringing into the world with the blessing of the gods then pain will be a very distant thought." Her words were true and even though she did not specifically talk of the past litters she had delivered, it was clear to tell her words held knowledge and wisdom gained only by experience.

With that, she continued into the old deserted ship. Instantly, she found spots that would be good for giving birth but they were too close to the entrance. The thought that most wolves were on Inamos and that even if they were on this territory, they wouldn't likely go explore such strange formations was not enough for this she wolf. She wanted to be well hidden, she wanted as much secrecy as she could find so that if a wolf did come to the ship, she still would be hard to find. She continued walking farther back until the reached the furthest room and only then did she settle into the furthest corner. "This will offer us protection and security," she told the others speaking in a way that told them those two things were important when choosing a den.

Tala @kayi

[Tala]

She smiled as she saw Kiva nuzzle Kayi, it served as proof that Kiva really was as sweet as she thought. But she was quickly immersed into Kiva explanation of child birth. "I'm not going to say that it doesn't hurt and that it isn't uncomfortable but, it depends on your state of mind more than anything. If you have a bad attitude about it and over think everything then yes, it will hurt. But, if you think about the miracle that is happening and the precious little ones that you are bringing into the world with the blessing of the gods then pain will be a very distant thought."

The younger female thought on these words, reflecting how she often changed from being happy and sad about her own pregnancy. Happy that she would have darling little fur balls of her own but sad whenever she dwelt on how they were conceived. Surely she would have to push Goliath out of her mind and focus on the happiness of the pups arrival. 

Simply nodding in response, she followed her into the odd structure, keeping a little behind so she would not crowd Kivas space while she made a decision about where the birth would take place. Finally, the crescent moon marked female found a spot to her liking and Tala became more excited for what would shortly be happening thereafter.

Soft green eyes looked to Kayi, to judge if the younger girl was more at ease now. She heard of births being called 'a miracle' but never witnessed one to know if it was a correct description. Hopefully Kayi would be alright, Tala would be sure to comfort her and Kiva as best she could during this momentous occasion.

Waiting was all that seemed left for her to do, excited ness made her a touch fidgety but she tried to remain calm as she didn't wait to upset the expectant mother.


Kiva @kayi
OCC: this is so exciting!!!

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Something within her ignited when the older female nuzzled her in quiet reassurance--something that she hadn't felt since her beloved mother, Inaya, had passed in a death she didn't deserve. Something beautiful… it was tender, soft--she had only felt this delicate and perfect bliss when her mother nuzzled her like she only knew how to do. Kayi's eyes were semi-closed, tears filling them as her knees shook feebly. Looking quickly to the ground, she sighed before looking at Tala with a sad smile. She was really trying to be strong, for herself and to honor the names of her family, but it was hard. She wanted her mother to be proud of her, but she often forgot how hard it actually was. She longed to feel her mother's fur once more, her sweet scent, her gorgeous grey eyes, and her wise words. She desired to embrace her father, sulk in his scent, play with his flawless white and grey coat, and feel his warmth once more…

A tight knot began to entangle her tongue, making it hard to breathe for a moment. She was thankful that Tala knew about her struggles, and she knew that Kiva would also know about what was going on with her soon. Because what Kiva had done brought back bittersweet memories--and soon, a new feeling towards the older grey female began to emerge from her heart. She desperately needed a motherly touch, a family… and maybe Kiva and Tala were going to be just that. Only time would tell. But for now, the albino femme was holding back tears as much as she could, trying to pull down her thoughts into reality once more. Kiva was describing how giving birth was like--she was scared of the thought, but the way she described it made it feel like a more bearable pain rather than something that was terrifying. Sighing a little bit in relief, she raised her head a little bit more and raised her ears, yet her mind was slowly drifting away.

Following the two females, she heard Kiva speak about something but she didn't listen enough because her thoughts were somewhere else, her mind blank and her eyes were locked on the floor. Shifting her weight between her legs, she observed the females that surrounded her, still feeling a knot on her throat which made it almost impossible for her to talk. She wanted to talk to Kiva once she was available, because the pain she had in her heart was too much. Breathing slowly, she regained her thoughts and concentrated on the current events, or at least, tried to. Now it was about waiting and being prepared for the worst. 



Tala Kiva

[Kiva]

Kiva could tell when she nuzzled the young white albino that something was wrong but she unfortunately didn't know what it was. She doubted it was because of the labor that would soon be happening but still she made a mental note to say something later, when it wouldn't be obvious or even noticeable that she was refrencing the strange vibe that she was picking up from her. In the mean time, she moved closer to her, her snow white fur mixing with Kiva's moonlight silver fur in a comforting touch.

Remaining side by side with the younger wolf, she spoke of the pain of pregnancy and how to make it bearable.  It was only after she saw the satisfied, if not thoughtful, look of the two wolves was she convinced she had given the right answer. She noddes to herself as she reached the abandoned ship and walked in, instantly starting her search for the best place to give birth. Once that spot had been discovered she laid down and sighed tiredly. "I appreciate the willingness to help, but if you do not want to stay, it will not upset me but I recommend leaving now before anything starts to happen." She said as she looked over them.

As if on cue, her contractions started and she winced with the unexpected pain but soon after took a deep breath and relaxed. This was her fourth time delivering pups and each time got easier and faster as she learned what she should do. She focused on taking deep breaths to help ignore the pain and waited for the feeling that would tell her she needed to start pushing. With each passing five or ten minutes, the contractions came increasingly faster and she knew it wouldn't be long before it was time.

[Tala]

Excitement and fear coursed through the green eyed female. She was looking forward to seeing for the first time...life! New life coming into the world was said to be a miracle and she wanted to know if it was true. 

But looking over at Kayi, she felt concern for her friend. A struggle was in her coral eyes and Tala believed she only knew part of the story. She didn't know all the details, so there was something she easy could have missed. She was about to say something when Kiva spoke up. Listening to the older female, Tala made a silent resolve to stay and help, even though she wasn't sure how as of yet. 

Watching the pain flash over her face made the quiet one worry. Should she do something? Or wait? Kiva said this was to be expected but it would all be worth while. She could believe that. Easily. Almost picturing when she welcomed her own pups to the world, having someone to love completely would make any pain worth while. 

A glance to Kayi, just to see how she was doing. Would she be ok? It was then Tala began to wonder of Kayi's family. She knew their names, all of them. The albino needed love just as much as she did. But would one day come when Kayi would raise a family of her own? Only the fates knew. Until then Tala would be there, even to the end of time.

so many promises, so much to find out and learn. Kiva would bring sweet bundles of fur into the world and Tala would listen to her guidance so attentively. Learn and share....that was how it should be, right?




Kiva @kayi
OOC: sorry for the crappy post and aimless writing, but i didn't want to keep you waiting any longer.

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Kayi followed the older femme into the ship, observing her surroundings before saying anything. Rusted metal structures rose above them, making Kayi feel curious about who created these strange objects. She had heard something about two legged creatures, but she did not know anything about them, so they remained a mystery to the albino female. Lowering her head a little bit, she followed Kiva until she saw her lay down. "I appreciate the willingness to help, but if you do not want to stay, it will not upset me but I recommend leaving now before anything starts to happen." Kayi smiled and opened her maw to speak. "I will not leave. I'm with you 'til the end. I'm not leaving you alone in this vulnerable state." Kayi spoke softly, her words entangled with care and attention.  She sat down in front of the heavily pregnant female, looking behind her to see if Tala was next to her. She smiled at the pretty girl before turning her attention back to Kiva.

Kayi did not know anything about birthing or helping a pregnant female give birth. It was a foreign aspect of life for her, but it was one she admired. It seemed exhausting and terrifying for the petite femme, but what Kiva had said brought a little bit of light into what it really meant. She had no clue how much it meant to the female that gave birth to have bundles of joy inside of her and bring them to the world, and when she looked at this type of situation, all she could think now was that the pain was... maybe worth it. She looked at Tala earlier and noticed that she was also pregnant, and it only made her wonder who was the father. But she knew that she would do anything in her power to help and care for these new pups, and she knew that she'd be there if they ever needed her. Sighing, her mind was prepared for the worst, but it started to hope for the best. 

Tala Kiva

[Kiva]

The Silver colored female was right to think that it would not be long before it was time to start pushing. After about thirty minutes of contractions and deep breathing, she knew it was. Giving both of the young wolves a, it's time, look, she started pushing, concentrating on nothing but what she was doing and making sure she pushed for as long as she could each time.

It took about fifteen minutes of pushing before the first pup was born and when it arrived, her heart stopped and with a gasp, she could feel tears stinging her bright blue eyes. The wolf was a male and dark gray in color with dark blue eyes and a blue crescent on his forehead. He looked like a perfect mix of her and her brother, making her mutter the name "Cato," under her breath. She had no doubt that her brother had returned to the world of the living through her son and her heart both jumped for joy and felt heavy and saddened. As she cleaned off the pup and heard his first cry, she smiled softly and announced his name, "He will be named Cato Jr, or Cato for short," she nodded and nuzzled her son with a sigh.

After that, it was time for her to push again and once more she focused on making sure she pushed for as long as she could each time to try and speed up the process. After another twenty or so minutes of pushing, Kiva was starting to worry if something was wrong but she continued to push and after another ten minutes, she sighed with relief when the Second pup was born. She was a gray wolf, mixed with both darker and lighter shades and she dawned pretty blue eyes, neither dark nor light. She was also special in that out of all her previous litters, there had only been one wolf with a crescent mark out of the litters that had it. She would mark the first time the silver wolf would give birth to two wolves with the crescent mark, Cato who had it on his forehead, and she who wore it on her hip. She cleaned off the pup and as she did, possible names ran through her head until she found the right one. "She will be named Sasha," she nodded as she said her mother's name. Nudging the pup to her belly along with her brother so that they could nurse, she returned to pushing.

The last pup was eager to enter into the world and join her siblings as she was born no later than five minutes after the silver she wolf had begun pushing again. When she saw her, Kiva couldn't help but smile proudly as her fur was a bright silvery gray, almost identical to her mother's. Even though she held no mark, Kiva was still excited at the similarities they shared, including the bright blue eyes. She started cleaning the young pup and almost instantly, a name came to her. She would be named after Kiva's favorite wolf friend and one who used to babysit her other pups. "Onya, she will be named Onya," she nodded as she moved her to her belly to join the other two. She had officially given birth to sixteen pups in total and she couldn't be more proud.

[Tala]

She was so excited and nervous, she couldn't figure out which emotion was stronger. The confident reply she heard from Kayi boosted her own demeanor, hoping she would have someone so determined around when her young came to the world. 

Shifting from paw to paw as she waited, the air heavy with expectation. Finally Kiva pushed and Tala held her breath, silently urging her on. Surely Kiva knew what she was doing and Tala watched to learn all she could, chanting in her head You're doing great, keep going. 

Then the firstborn arrived! A darling boy that nearly took away Tala's breath. He was so...perfect. Minty eyes flickered to Kiva and saw the emotions flow over her silver face. Finally announcing his name with the utmost tenderness that only a mother could utter.

The next pup took longer and Tala worried if it was ok. Silence reigned over her though, maybe this was really normal. But she thought pups came faster than that. Not that she really had a clue. But then a little girl was born with a crescent just like her mother and brother. An odd mark but Tala liked it immensely.

She didn't have much time to watch the newly named Sasha before Kiva delivered the last and, from what she could tell, took most after the pretty mother. A title given to her as well and Tala kept reciting the names in her head as she looked over the little newborns suckling at their mother. "They are beautiful, Kiva." Was all she could manage to say as the miracle of what just happened made her mind a whirlwind of thoughts.

Turning to smile at Kayi as well as gauge how the younger female was doing. A lot happened in a relatively short time. New life and stronger bonds were formed. 

Kiva @kayi

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Kayi was now standing next to the older femme, waiting in anticipation for the arrival of the new bundles of joy. But, just like every precious moment in life, there were usually moments of intense pain between them. And she knew that these little bundles of happiness were brought upon the world with pain and suffering. But they were so oblivious of it, so... innocent--they grew up not knowing the pains of the mother until they were old enough to acknowledge it. But the mother was usually loving, caring and always felt complete devotion towards her pups, because they became her precious moment. Laced with pain, yes... but it only made it worthwhile. Smiling at Kiva, Kayi was hoping that everything went alright with the birth. She saw the mother wince in pain, and after giving words of encouragement, the pups began to be born one by one, and Kiva was quick at naming every one of them. 

Kayi noticed how some of them had crescent moon markings, and she thought that was a beautiful and unique aspect of them. Smiling and getting a little closer to the wiggling pups, she sat down and smiled at them. "They're so adorable! Congratulations Kiva!" she exclaimed, and then looked at Tala with a big smile on her face. "I'm sure yours will be adorable too, Tala," Kayi spoke with her tail wagging in happiness before continuing, "...and don't worry, I'm going to be there too for when you have yours." Kayi felt overjoyed that everything had ran smoothly with her birth, and she saw that maybe... it wasn't so bad. Yeah, it would hurt, but... the aspect of having pups now seemed like a possibility for her in the future. She would have no problems with doing so, and she knew of a few methods to avoid pain, so... maybe she could have a family of her own one day, and raise them just like her mother raised her and her siblings--with complete love and devotion. She looked back at Kiva for a brief moment before asking her a question. "Well... are you feeling better? Are you sure there's no more left playing hide and seek?" 


Tala Kiva