Hidden Message [Charrus/open]

[eudoxia]

There was too much guilt on her right now to stay on the island with Req. She had gotten out of there even though he was her only friend. The white female had her head down as she walked on. She had attacked him over a stupid thing, it had just been a laugh is all. Maybe they just weren't meant to be friends, after all it had been so hard to be friends at first anyway with Req hating all wolves and she hating all male wolves. Then of course they fought over a deer and who had the rights to it, then she licked him and that freaked him out...

With a sigh she sank down onto the ground, her depression sinking right along with her. If she knew where Req was at right now, she would be proud of him because he was around other wolves. Of course she was being more like him from before, although she had scented wolves on the breeze, she had avoided going towards them and instead hid in the shadows and went around. The heat was growing higher as the day wore on and while it was one of the lower places on Anikira, she was laying out in the open with the heat beating down onto her pelt.

Her green eyes flicked open and looked straight, the island she had been on last night loomed across the sea. With swimming emotions, the female lifted herself up onto her haunches and tilted her head back to let out a mournful howl with a hidden message no one would get but the one she felt that she had wronged. It was sorry... With the sun beating down on her back and her green eyes closed, Eud didn't lay back down but remained with her head up as she sat there. A white pillar of self loathing...

ooc ;; sorry for it being kinda short but I was running out of ideas since right now she is being rather boring...

[charrus]

Abandoned on the beach. That is what the large red tinted brute felt had happened. Amongst his own brethren, the mutated wolves of Anikira had disappeared, leaving Charrus to go off in search of the Riadrak on this unfamiliar land. It could be titled as a quest perhaps, but the young wolf had no idea where to start searching. Anikira was a vast landscape, its own continent. And one single wolf would have a long ways to go.

Stepping on the soft sands of the beach, Charrus walked along the shore, waves seeping through the pads of his paws as he stepped along. His head was carried low to the ground, each step he took was heavy, a beast was on the beach. A howl reached his peaked crimson auds, the cry was nearby and sorrowful. Charrus wasn't sure if he should approach a normal wolf, a normal wolf in a saddened state of mind perhaps? The large brute's neon green cat-like eyes darted around the beach, searching for the source of the howl as he continued to walk. Black nose pointed to the sky, inhaling in big short increments. The smell of a female was indeed nearby, so the colored male made his way towards her.

A white wolf came into view, sitting on the beach with her head tilted to the sky. 'This must be the female who howled.' Charrus assumed, stepping towards her cautiously, then hesitated, and took a step back. 'What if she freaks out by my appearance?' By the looks of it, the white female was almost half his size, and a monstrous painted crimson brute with creepy eyes like himself would be sure to freak out any normal wolf. So instead, he kept his distance, head high as he called to the female.

"Excuse me miss." His hollow voice boomed for her, just to get her attention, then he began to walk slowly towards the white female. "My name is Charrus Leam Berlioza, I am new to this island." His voice was intimidating, but soft. He wasn't trying to spook the small female, but she was the only one around he could talk to. "Please, do not fear me. I mean no harm..." He bowed his head, though much larger still. "I heard your cry."

[eudoxia]

The booming voice enter her mind and scramble around only to put together words and a short sentence. Next came the sound of movement, slow and steady over the beach and under the sun with more words to fill the air and a longer name then the world it seemed. Finally when he was right there with his head lowered she lowered her muzzle and opened her dark green eyes to take in the sight of a male wolf larger than Req and hued fur like no other with bright eyes.

"Why would I fear you? Your looks? If I were to fear one due to looks it would not be you Charrus Leam, but the one I was with not to long ago by the name of Requiem for his appearance is far from intimating than your own. He has a leg of steel and missing an eye. While his size is not the same as yours, he is still a larger male than myself." Of course she left out that Req was not one anyone could really be scared of, he was easily scared of others and had tried to hide when she had first met him in fact. Those facts would be left out though.

Her head was the only thing that had moved so far, nothing else as her whole body was rigid. "If your just looking for a tour guide for the island, keep looking. If you actually want to talk or something sit down Leam." After a pause and slight snort to settle herself, she spoke just a few more words. "You can call me Eudoxia." In case he still thought that Eud might be scared of him, the female lowered herself onto the ground. She wouldn't judge him until she knew him, that much she had learned from her odd friendship with Req at least.

[charrus]

Raising an eyebrow at the white female, the exact opposite reaction from her than Charrus expected. She was a strange little wolf, but her description of a wolf named Requiem did seem a bit intimidating. 'Humans must have experimented that wolf perhaps.' Charrus guessed. A metal limb, humans would of had to have something to do with it. It wasn't natural. "I'm glad you aren't afraid..." He managed to say after her small speech.

Slitted neon eyes looked around, Charrus wasn't sure about this fae. She seemed to be rather discouraged about something, and the brute wasn't the wolf to cheer someone up. He would most likely only make it worse. She also seemed a bit older than himself, which meant she could hold some knowledge about this land. "Oh no... I wasn't looking for a guide." He said softly, taking a seat near the fae as if almost demanded to. "It's nice to meet you, Eudoxia." Charrus smiled slightly, still feeling a bit uncomfortable in this situation. Even sitting, he towered high over Eud.

Turning his gaze towards the white female, parting his mouth to speak. "I do have a question, however." The crimson tinted brute paused, licking his lips. "Have you heard of a group called the Riadrak?" Blinking, and turning his gaze away from hers now, opening his mouth again and shaking his head at what he is about to say. "Apparently, they look similar to that of me...I mean... The coloring and abnormal largeness." Charrus doubted Eudoxia had heard of this group, he'd have to search alone. Or seek out the Cyale's again for advice on where they could be. He remained seated next to Eudoxia, hoping to get an answer and possibly the reason of why she was upset. "I couldn't help but wonder, if something is wrong? You seemed a little down when I saw you."

[eudoxia]

A slight nod was given when he said it was nice to meet her. While he had a small smile on his jaws, she had a frown, the same frown she had from before, it had yet to change. His question ran through her mind for a bit, but she shook her head and was about to speak when he spoke again so she listened and braced her mind for the answer right now only Req and herself knew... "I do not know this group you call the Riadrak. As it is, I may of been here for a bit, but I have met only one wolf here and have mostly kept away from other wolves for my own personal reasons that I wish to keep silent for my own faults do not need to come out right now."

Her front paws pushed against the sand and she sat up to look at the male better. His size was not something she cared about in the least even though he seemed a little uneasy about his own bulk. "I mourn the faults I made in the only friendship I have in this place with Req. A simple action of a laugh made me try and hurt him even though I had heard of his past, of the life he has led and been forced into and I still did it. This morning I woke before he did on the island out in the surf just a little ways offshore from here and swam back, not even saying goodbye to him as I felt too much guilt in what I had done."

Now her gaze turned out to the surf, was he still out there all alone in his shell of pain? Her mind had wandered for sure back to the male which was very rude to the male here right now who had been speaking with her. With a small swallow, she shut those feelings and thoughts in the back of her mind, she had to be on the here and now, not what had happened and her mess up. Hopefully everything here would go better than what had happened at first with Req, but it had turned better until the point of the laugh...

[charrus]

This Eudoxia was a very strange and mysterious female in Charrus's eyes. Not ever had he met a wolf with such a negative view on life, but he didn't know her well, and didn't know what she had been though. Her stories were envisioned in his mind, but only in blurred pictures which went through frame by frame than in motion. She was a loner like himself, and seemed to be for a long time. She mentioned never coming in contact with other wolves except her friend Requiem. In Charrus's mind, Requiem was pictured as a large white brute, a leg made of steel and a gauging hole in one of his eyes. Beaten and battered on the outside which reflected on his personality as well. One day, Charrus would want to meet this brute.

Eudoxia then answered his question about why she seemed down. She talked about her friendship with Requiem, and how he up and left without any say. Charrus wasn't the one with advice on situations like this. he could hardly give himself advice. Slitted neon orbs lowered to the ground as he brushed off sand from one of his paws and frowned. "Everyone makes mistakes in their life, but blaming yourself could lead to further problems. Charrus blinked and shook his head. "I am terribly sorry for your loss, Eudoxia. But maybe this Requiem fellow had a reason for leaving without a farewell." Charrus spoke, unsure about his own words. The last thing he wanted to do was upset the white fae further. "I mean... Maybe you should seek him out. There could be unanswered questions."

His gaze followed hers out to the sea. There were many unanswered questions about life itself. Only time would tell until these questions would be answered. And they don't just come from the heavens. They need to be searched for.

[eudoxia]

She shook her head when he went on, had she said it wrong? Dark eyes moved to his neon ones as she spoke up after he was done. "Either I misspoke or you took it the wrong way, Req was not the one to leave. I did because guilt weighs heavy on me for how I treated him at the start and in the end. A simple thing like a laugh sent me into anger at the only friend I have..." Her voice trailed off as she remembered the hurt feeling that swelled up inside her at the laugh.

Fears that had haunted her had been told and he had laughed. "While maybe seeking him out would do good for me, I think it might rip him apart." The female got up and moved towards the island a few steps, her ears perked and tail still low before turning to the large male who was so close to her only physically. "Tell me Leam, if you had just one friend and you knew other wolves had left your friend down time and time again, would you not feel guilt killing you inside for attacking him over a simple laugh at some silly fear? Would you be able to look him in the eye in the morning after you had begged him to take your life in his jaws and crush it from your body?"

Now her voice had dropped low and a shadow was over her eyes as a fear had gripped her sight, almost as if Req was standing before her as she professed her sins to an unknown male. Quickly she turned away and looked out over the waters, whispering very low and not caring if the other heard her or not. "Dear Creator why have you put me on this earth anyway if I am just to be tormented all my life by those who may even matter..." She needed to find something better to talk about, but was coming up totally blank so her head dropped as he waited and hoped for her to say something or for Leam to say something not about Req...

[charrus]

"My apologies for misunderstanding, I just came here from a long swim not long ago, and have lacked sleep since..." Charrus mumbled helplessly, it was true however, he hadn't slept in many days since he stumbled across these new lands. Her words continued to inform him on her past, which the past didn't seem to long ago. Eudoxia still seemed pained from the situation, but there wasn't much Charrus could do for her now.

"It wouldn't hurt to find out." He replied to the smaller white female as she mentioned seeking the male she spoke about. The red tinted brute's advice wasn't great, but it would have to do. Anyway, he had to seek out Riadrak, or just simply find a place to call home. But what startled him slightly was Eudoxia's question towards him. Charrus was in awe, and wasn't sure how to reply. "I.. Uhm..." He stumbled on words, trying to find the best way to respond without disrespecting the older female. "I'm not sure Miss Eudoxia... Perhaps some things happened, but in all cases finding a way to apologize would be the best option if I were in that sort of situation..."

Charrus shook his head at his lame response. "Forgiveness is the key, if you can forgive, it is quite possible Requiem could forgive you." Rolling his stiffened shoulders, his eyes gazing out at the sea from which he came. 'But I could never forgive that hyena for what he did to Terren...' That was the only hatred he felt within his heart, and the love for his family. Especially his beloved sister. Whispering fell into his ears as he unintentionally listened in on Eud. Ears flattened against his scarlet painted head and a frown appeared on his maw. 'She must have been through so much...' Charrus pondered, but decided it be best if he pretended he heard nothing.

He hated to have to leave Eudoxia, but the large brute was on a mission. He hoped his advice towards her would bring her hopes up. "Eudoxia, it was a pleasure meeting you." Charrus spoke as he rose to his quads. "It would do you much to see how Requiem is doing, whether you speak to him or not... Just knowing he is alive and well could bring you happiness." Without the fae having time to respond, Charrus trotted off, in search of a home.

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Ooc: I'm so sorry, really crappy post but I have no muse with him unless I find him a pack xD

[rhy]

Ooc-Wow you guys say the posts are short, but they're not by my standards xD Hope I can keep up ^.^;

Ic- Rhylyn's paws hit the turf softly, not making any sound. Walking very slowly, head and tail down, she whined quietly to herself. She hadn't found her family. But then again...she hadn't been trying too hard to look for them anyways. With a small sigh, her ears perked forward. Voices! Rhylyn nearly yelped with excitement. She hadn't spoken to anyone besides her family for a good year. In fact, she'd hardly spoken to them, because they'd just been moping around the whole time because of...

'Rhylyn don't think about that. Don't think about it.' she spat silently, shaking her head as if to shake away the memories...They were so clear. So terribly clear...Her father, her beloved Amras...Torn. She choked. Slaughtered. She could hardly find a big enough piece to show- 'DAMNIT! Shut UP!' Her mind snarled at the multi-hued Tundra fae. She came to realize that her paws had carried her towards a beach.

Rhylyn's body trembled. Then her ears flicked. Waves. She could hear waves. The familiar slapping, crashing against the rocks...She knew the sound well. Sinking into the sand, she let the waves fill her mind. It cleared it, mostly, of that terrible night. But what she needed was interaction between others. Rhy had been sure she'd heard voices earlier, but now she heard nothing. "Hello?" she called out softly, hardly more than a whisper. Feeling just slightly idiotic at the prospect of actually hearing voices, Rhylyn got back up and looked around. She wasn't crazy...no, if anything, she definitely wasn't crazy.

With a small sigh, she started to walk off, searching for the owners to the voices she'd heard earlier. It was then that she saw a brute heading away. She had half a mind to follow him, but her eyes strayed to the femme he had left. Dipping her head slightly she made her way over and sat down. "Greetings. My name is Rhylyn. I hope you don't mind if I join you for a short while?" Rhy murmured, smiling slightly.

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[eudoxia]

"...finding a way to apologize..." Her eyes turned upward and to the male while she pondered if it would even be possible for Req to forgive her for her wrongs. As he moved away, she rose to her paws and watched him, maybe he was right, seeing Req at least, even if no words left, maybe then she could go on and leave him behind her for awhile. "Thank you Leam..." Was whispered softly as she watched the large grey and red male walk away. As another wolf walked towards her, Eud stood tall, her head high and ears pulled back. It was no sign of being the leader, but she was weary of strangers right now with her mind twisted around the white brute.

Slowly the white rump met the sand and her eyes ran over the other female. Not only did this one have a multi hued coat, but she looked to be a little bigger and still so much younger in the face than herself. "Stay as long as you like, I plan on remaining in this area until Requiem either crosses my path again or comes to or from the island from last night..." With her plan solid in her mind, the female nodded and the heavy weight on her chest lifted so she felt like she could breathe easier for now. Of course once the one who had taken her life and woven his lock into her quit of life, that would change again.

She had to black out her mind if possible if she was going to try and pay attention to this other wolf. Rh...shoot, what the hell was her name again? With a sigh she stood up and circled the place she had sat a bit before laying down with a tired sigh and allowing her green eyes to close. "I have already forgotten your name wolf. Sorry, my mind has been on many other things." After a few seconds of silence, she opened her eyes again to look at the female. "I guess I should give my name before asking for yours again shouldn't I? Eudoxia is what you can call me young one."

[rhy]

Rhylyn nodded again the thje older femme. What she was saying didn't make much sense to Rhy...the name she spoke. "I'm new here...Who was that brute that just left?" she asked, flicking her tail in the direction which he had left. Wth a small sigh, Rhylyn laid down, putting her muzzle in the sand. She must look odd to Eudoxia, with her faced shoved into the white powder.

"Requiem...a friend of yours?" she questioned, lifting her head to speak. "Why aren't you with them now?" Rhylyn was merely trying to make conversation at the moment. She cleared her throat, realizing how raspy it sounded. "I have come a long way...Not to seem pathetic or anything, but I could use company right about now. Half my family died awhile ago, when I was barely a pup. Then the rest of them abandoned me." Rhy sighed, looking away. Her bronze orbs reflected sadness.

"I have already forgotten your name wolf. Sorry, my mind has been on many other things."
Rhylyn, who had been busy pushing her snout into the sand again, chuckled slightly, shaking the powder from her muzzle, and barked, "Oh that's alright...I'm Rhylyn. Eudoxia...nice name. Unique. Kind of hard to say." she chuckled. With a sigh the young femme looked out to the waves. She still never understood why it calmed her.

"How long have you been here, Eudoxia?" Rhylyn asked, curious, as she gazed at the other femme. While Rhy waited for an answer, she thought, sullenly, whether or not her family might be here, too. Although the chances were small, Rhy didn't bother asking if they'd been see. It was apparent that they'd left her. Still it bothered Rhy, having to wonder whether ir not they were all right...Once again Rhylyn shook herself, feeling a bit angry at herself for worrying so much. They could take care of themselves! 'Besides...' Rhylyn's subconcious murmured. 'If they really needed you ,they wouldn't have left you in the first place. There was no sign of a struggle, so they weren't-' Rhylyn cut herself short. No. She wasn't going to think about that. Not here. Not now. With a sigh the Tundra femme turned her attention back towards the other fae.

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[eudoxia]

As the younger female asked about the grey and red wolf of massive size, for now Eud just looked down at the large paw prints and waited for a time to speak up. As the female laid down and shoved her muzzle into the sand, she spoke a little about the odd male who had left. "His name is Leam, actually it is about four names long. He is looking for a group I have never heard of, the Riadrak." When she then asked of Req, the white female grew stiff. Could she tell one so young? Would the other female even understand what Eud was talking about when it looked like Rhy was fresh.

"Why aren't you with them now?" Eud swallowed hard and sat down with her head hanging low now. She was going to have to of course tell at least some of Req to Rhy. As Rhy kept talking, it brought Eud back to her family, of the deaths, the attempt on her father's life, everything flooded back and so did the pain of what she had done to Req. Maybe she should not speak of it, that is what made him laugh at her and that made her snap after all... Finally the female stated her name and asked a final question before Rhy seemed lost in though for a few seconds.

"I have been here since late winter of last year. As for Requiem..." Eud got choked up with emotion at saying his name and had to stop for a few seconds to gather herself again. "Requiem is more than a friend, he is my lifesaver and teacher, a great friend who I think I took down by leaving from a matter one of your youth would understand nothing of." Mentally she was checking off what Rhy had said and what Eud had responded to, she had told who Leam was, who Req was and why she wasn't with either of them right now. She had also said how long she had been here already.

"I have no pity for your family Rhy, they are not there to be your blanket in this cruel world. Your dreams of then are crushed as you watch the life drain from your loved one's beautiful orbs, his blood staining the ground as you wait for the final passing... Then you go mindless and watch your sister being killed because she is barren and her mate is a fool. Your father puts pressure on you to find a mate when yours to be is in the ground and you snap... Pushing him into a fight that leaves both wounded and you in exile for your deeds... Family is not what it appears. Through death and abandonment, they saved you a lot of pain Rhylyn. Enjoy it while you can because one day you will bring it up and it will harm you all over again."

She was lost in her own words, seeing ever move as a youth herself, the buck's antler slitting her lover, the love still in his eyes as he slowly bled out. The death of her sister, the happiness of the other and the pressure. Dear creator the pressure, it had made her snap and she went for blood. With a whine her legs lost their grip and she fell to the sand and tucked her muzzle into her chest. "Requiem..." She cried softly into her white fur. She could see the fear cross his face as she went for blood again, this time his. All because of a laugh, the laugh bouncing in her head right now.

With a sudden snap she stood up quickly and shook the sand from her coat, pulling herself together. If she feel apart now, then how would she ever last to see Req even just one more day? If she ever got that chance...she had to be strong. Eud swallowed once more before allowing her haunches to rest on the ground as she turned to the youth female and remained silent, not caring what Rhy thought of her little action of guilt ridden pain. While her heart still twisted from what she had done to the one who had stolen her mind, she still had to try and think straight around this youth.

ooc ;; dances from first longer post done in ages for me it seems


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Her mind kept wandering, it wouldn't stay on topic and it was not fair to the other female to speak to one with such issues mentally right now. "I'm sorry Rhy but I cannot stay here any longer, I have to go and search for Req, I need to speak with him. I wish you the best of luck, but I must go." With that she got up and bolted down the beach, trying to figure out where to go, where to find him. She had to find Req...her stomach was in the pinch of her being hungry, but she would refuse food right now. She had to do this, there was no turning back...