Post by jay on Aug 30, 2010 14:58:01 GMT -5
Enough was enough. Jay could not handle being surrounded by a bunch of stressed out, old wolves that could not seem to run a pack. He was frustrated, to say the least. Why was it that no one seemed to be able to step up to take Xinelil's place when he had passed? He growled softly, watching his paw steps as he followed the shadowy figure Alearia cast on the ground hover above him. Nothing was right anymore.
The Oriens were beautiful. So why was it that the Aldgar Pack seemed to be taking advantage of everything they had? Jay shook his head, unable to comprehend the stupidity of some wolves. The pack had virtually been at a standstill since Xin had passed. Meikou was hardly around, so it seemed, and Jay was honestly the only original member left. He was sick of all of this nonsense, and something needed to happen soon or he would walk away from it. This place is my home, but what am I really getting from it? I am always by myself unless I make a point to seek out company. I barely receive any acknowledgement, my only friend is on the rocks now, and even with that I'm not sure I should consider him a friend anymore. He snorted. Not only that, but Kadhi did not accept Alearia in the least. She was his rock, and right now he needed her more than ever. Yet there he was, terrified by his winged friend.
"Alearia, what can we do to fix this?" he asked, hopelessness in his voice. The snowy owl hooted softly. "Jay, there is not much more you can do right now than you are already doing. They have to sort out their issues before anything more can become of this place," she asserted honestly. It was the answer Jay did not want to hear. "So why am I so useless in this situation? Heck, I could probably do as good of a job as Alpha as Meikou is doing!" he griped. Alearia laughed, "No matter what you think, you are not as mature as you believe. The pack would be in shambles with you at the head. There are still years for you to learn before you would be acceptable as an Alpha. I mean this is the nicest way possible, but you are still but a pup."
That was the last straw. Jay growled, "I am not a friggin pup. I am a full-grown male and I am twice as strong as most of the wolves in this territory. If you think I lack the ability to take care of myself, then why is it that I am always the one out here fending for myself, patrolling the borders, and making sure no harm comes to my family? Sure, I am young. But I am not the fool you seem to take me for." He halted, glaring up at Alearia as she paused to roost on a tree. I don't understand why everyone feels that I am so insignificant in this place. I practically run the borders, anyways, he thought ignorantly. Little did he know how much truly went into running a pack. "I am not calling you stupid or weak. I am merely pointing out that you lack the necessary experience and judgement of years that is required to run a pack in an organized manner. Sure, Meikou needs some work, but she also holds herself with pride. She may not be a born leader, but she is adapting to it. I see promise in you, Jay, and I do not doubt that you will succeed at whatever you wish to achieve. But right now, you are not the right one to handle this situation," she lectured sternly.
He growled softly. It seemed that the owl was always right. He did not have the reasoning necessary to run the pack; he was a grunt monkey right now. Perhaps he could prove his worthiness, but unlike Alearia, he knew that some changes were in order if Aldgar were ever to return to its previous glory. The pack used to be the largest in the lands, prospering and happy as could be. Now there were two of them officially, since Syren had disappeared. He did not know whether Tanner had chosen to join the pack or whether Kadhi would ever fully be a member of Aldgar in his eyes again. It was him and Meikou, the shambles of what had once been a great thing. It was like an empire, wasting away in a shameful display of forgotten past.