[kenley] breaking point

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grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down
i'd just stare out my window, dreaming of what could be and if i'd end up happy

AOWYN

Why was this so difficult? Not that she wanted to complain. She hated complaining, she really did. She didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings or make them feel like she was whining. She was sensitive enough to take everyone's feelings into consideration and she disliked making them feel like they had to carry a burden around on their shoulders because of her. it had seemed that way for a long time and she didn't want to make it that way while she was here. She already loved this pack, loved the wolves in it. She loved hunting for them, providing for them, and being of use. She had a purpose here and it made her feel absolutely wonderful. She loved them, and the alpha. She shook her head of that thought as her paws clung clumsily to the stones beneath her, attempting to make the climb.

Aowyn's paws was healed, no longer injured, and it made her glad to know she could function normally again. Yet, even then, there was something wrong, something off. She hadn't been feeling particularly at her fullest ever since that night she spent with Rasalas. Not that anything about it had been horrendous, no, quite the opposite. The very thought of what occurred that night made her fur heat up, completely flustered with every step she made. She didn't really understand why it happened, almost believed it to be a sheer act of lust, but dared not try to believe it to be that. It made her feel bad. Did he care? She did, and she knew she did, which only confused her more. She didn't understand the feelings so well or how to approach him with them. She was almost afraid to ask him about them. It scared her. Almost everything did scare her.

Even this. Why was the femme even bothering to climb up this butte? It was incredibly difficult, though as distracted as she was, she wasn't surprised that it was hard. She was never really good at anything in particular. At least she didn't think so, but she really was. Hunting was her forte, something she was unique and incredibly strong at. She managed to claw her way to the top of the butte, panting in her clear exhaustion. She even sneezed a bit when she reached the top, breathing in a bit of dust. The sneeze only kicked up more, and her panting was obvious. The stones on top of it were rather large, as she looked around, and it made her very glad. She was about to capture herself some shade, something she really did need at the moment. The climb hadn't even been that far up, so she didn't know why she was so exhausted. She felt another craving for the fish she caught so often too. She shook this away and paced on.

She was careful to avoid tripping up her paws in the stones. That had given her the nearly broken ankle the first time, running away from the explosion of the volcano. She was surprised that she had made it out of there alive, been able to run fast enough away with a rattlesnake clamped tightly in her mouth the entire time. Scout had told her it wasn't broken, but she stayed off it as he advised and it got better in no time. Her tired form dragged her over to the shade of one of the stones and she laid delicately beneath it. For whatever reason, she seemed more delicate with her movements, as though her instincts demanded it. She nestled there carefully, gazing out over the destroyed lands of the Occasus, wondering when it would be safe for her to wander there again. Not that no one else had gone back. She didn't even know why she was waiting. Everything was confusing for some reason.


"aowyn speaking" - #FFC1C1
"aowyn thinking"
"others speaking"
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i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes til i touch the sky

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Springing lightly from boulder to boulder, Kenley felt happier than she had in months. She felt almost as if she belonged, as if this place was warm and welcome. The sun touched her fur, the warmth a comfort that she missed dearly from home. Pausing atop a large rock momentarily, Kenley stretched her entire body, feeling her muscles tense as they stretched to their limits. The heat of the sun sunk into every pore of her body, brightening her mood even father. Despite everything, she was thankful. She had escaped that monster of a potential mate, had survived her perilous travels through the wild of the Middle East and Africa, she had arrived unscathed on Anikira, well for the most part. Her paw still ached slightly where she had cut it, but she had seen worse wounds than these. Her time with the shaman had opened her up to a world of experience that she knew would only help her. Kenley my dear, you truly are fortunate. and for that she was grateful.
Moving again she pounced to another rock, enjoying her freedom and the ability to play again. Her months alone had been taxing, constantly being on the alert for attack, and she had seldom been able to relax. Now, however she was at ease, she was herself again. And for that she couldn't thank a single soul enough. As she moved farther west a song rang in her heart, it had been far too long since she had sung aloud. She wished dearly for the pups of her pack, who would gather around her before bed, and to whom she would sing a lullaby. As if those pups were here now, she sang softly under breath, "Hush my love now don't you cry, everything will be all right, close your eyes and drift in dream, rest in peaceful sleep" she continued to sing as she made her way higher in the rocks, her breathing becoming slightly faster. The heat of the sun, warm before had started to take a toll on her. She was thankful for her light fur coat, she couldn't imagine having a thick winter one to shed.
Sitting on her haunches she took a rest, looking at the lands around her. In the distance she could see a dark patch, it looked as though it had been burnt badly. Perhaps one day I'll visit there, it looks to be an interesting place. Kenley knew she had to be careful though. Having washed up on shore she knew she had had a small blessing when meeting Rasalas. She was less sure, however of the other alphas and had no desire to cause trouble. Glancing briefly at the sun overhead the desire for shade grew. Spotting an overhang of rock ahead and just around a corner, she headed in that direction. Upon rounding the corner she skidded to an abrupt halt.
"Oh! Hello there!" Kenley had stumbled upon another wolf. At first glance she thought she had encountered Rasalas again, but upon closer inspection realized that this wolf was female. Not wanting to startle her Kenley's tail wagged gently, her tongue lolling out of her mouth. Her ears tilted forward slightly and her head cocked to the side, curious as always. "My name is Kenley! What's your name?" After so long not encountering any friendly wolves, Kenley hoped that this female would not chase her away.

OOC; Sorry it's so crummy! Also her little song is credited to Creed haha

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grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down
i'd just stare out my window, dreaming of what could be and if i'd end up happy

AOWYN

Aowyn ached, sore in many parts of her body. She had been straining herself, it seemed, far more than usual. It made most things hurt for extended periods of time throughout the day. She didn't understand why, for the most part, though every part of her wanted to believe it was just because of her overeager attitude to have a healed ankle. When she could walk on it properly, there had been nothing but the excitement in her head that buzzed around, ecstatic to be able to be up and doing what she had been before she'd caught her foot on the stupid stones. The temporarily damaged ankle had taken away what purpose she had been given. Where fishing was easy and simple, requiring only standing there and aiming with the maw, hunting for anything else was nigh impossible. Her purpose of providing food for the pack became dust for a few weeks.

The shade felt nice against her pelt, the breeze helping with the cooldown. Her heart was still racing in her chest, like a bird fluttering its soft and feathery wings against the edges of her ribcage. However, her breathing was slowing itself down and returning to normal. The chill of being beneath the shade of the stone was assisting in the feeling. There was no sense of turmoil in her body, everything was at peace as she gazed out over the ruined lands of the Occasus. She missed the desert sands already, yearned to shift her paws through the grains of sand, run about and kick up the soft particles, clamp her jaws around something other than a fish. She loved fish, they were her absolute favorite and her craving for them had grown, but she wanted rattlesnake in particular at the moment.

Aowyn was normally a skittish creature, startled by anything she wasn't paying attention to. If she had caught the scent of the strange female, then she would not have been so scared by her sudden appearance. Instead, she had not caught the scent and she became incredibly startled at the sudden appearance. Immediately, she scrambled to her feet and her back arched high. Every fur on her body seemed charged with electricity as they shot into the air, causing her to resemble more of a cat than a dog at the moment. She was an incredibly tiny thing and even though she seemed to suck every organ into her, her stomach sagged slightly. Momentarily, though, she sat back on her haunches warily, watching the female with her wide yellow-grey eyes.

"Oh-h-h-h. H-Hello, K-K-Kenley..." She wasn't sure how to make out the situation. She smelled vaguely of Tassos, but she couldn't be sure. Perhaps this was just a new member? Aowyn didn't really know and she was almost afraid to ask. However, the female didn't seem to want to cause any harm to her and that made her relax more, but every hair still stood up in place. "M-Me? I...I...I'm Aowyn, a h-h-hunter of T-T-T-Tassos..." Sometimes she truly did dislike her speech impediment, but others didn't seem to care so much as it was. it was part of her and it wasn't going away anytime soon.


"aowyn speaking" - #FFC1C1
"aowyn thinking"
"others speaking"
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i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly
i'll do what it takes til i touch the sky

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Worry coming over her features, Kenley watched as the other wolf appeared to double in size, her fur standing on end. Poor thing, I must have startled her. Studying the female, she noticed how her stomach seemed to protrude from her body slightly, despite everything else being tensed. Kenley noticed this, storing the piece of information in the back of her mind for later. Hearing the other wolf stutter, Kenley automatically felt ashamed. Had she startled this wolf to the point that she was afraid to talk to her?

Speaking softer than last time, Kenley made her reply to the other wolf. "Pleased to meet you, Aowyn! Sorry if I startled you, I hadn't meant to sneak up on you." Kenley tried to pour as much remorse into her voice as possible, hoping that she could convince Aowyn that she truly hadn't meant to frighten her. "You're in Tassos? I met with Rasalas earlier and we talked. I think he's still deciding though. He seems to care about all of you an awful lot!" Trying to keep her voice calm and soft was difficult for Kenley, she hadn't realized how much she had truly missed being around others. Kenley hoped dearly that she could be a part of this pack. That she could actually belong somewhere again. Oh what she wouldn't give for that.

"What are you doing out here all on your own?" It was a blazing hot day, and the air lingered, little to no wind to ease the heat. She was thankful for the shady overhang, sitting back on her haunches, head cocked to the side and glancing shyly at the other wolf. She was curious about her, why was this wolf so skiddish? She was tiny, and perhaps that added to it, but Kenley meant her no harm. If anything she hoped only to be friends, she hadn't had any of those since she'd left her home.

Glancing around, she took in the sands in the distance, humming quietly under her breath while she waited for the female to reply. Patience when meeting a new wolf was not her strong point, but knowing that she had startled this wolf, Kenley thought waiting was the best plan of action. Tapping her paw gently against the rock beneath her, Kenley continued to hum.

OOC; I'm so sorry this sucks so much. I'm dead

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Aowyn could not talk to anyone properly without her speech impediment worth a damn. For whatever reason, it had been something that had followed her throughout her life. The fear and concern that her father would beat her had been bestowed upon her years ago, but it had persisted in following her even through the boundaries of what she considered safe. There had not been the danger of her father coming near her or killing her in a long time, so she did not know why she stuttered all the time. Even when she spoke with someone she knew very well, the stutter refused to go away. She was afraid to talk to anyone, fearful something bad would come of it.

The female seemed incredibly friendly and happy, giving the femme no particular reason to feel afraid. Some part of her was wary, though, wanting to protect herself for whatever reason. She had no doubt the female hadn't intended to frighten her, but that was the red's reaction every time to anyone. "P-Pleasure to m-meet you t-t-too...and it's f-fine. I'm b-built like th-this." Oh? She was looking to join the pack. That was good. A large pack was a good thing, and she supposed Rasalas had been right in wanting to expand into Xisyn because of the growing numbers. She felt her skin flush heatedly at the mention of the alpha caring about them, mind wandering backwards for a moment. "Y-Y-Yes, h-he is a g-g-great alpha."

What was she doing out here? That was a good question, and she honestly wasn't so sure how to answer it, because she didn't really know the answer herself. She supposed her boredom had gotten the better of her to some extent, and she really wanted to see how the Occasus were doing, so she would use that. "I, uhm, I w-wanted to s-s-see how th-the lands were doing af-after the er-er-eruption. Th-That over there is al-also our h-h-home." She wanted to return to it, feel the sand between her toes again and chase after any creature that crossed her path so she could happily return to providing for the pack. She gestured at it with her muzzle.

She sniffed at the air, hoping to possibly catch a whiff of the desert winds, and it seemed to was in luck. She went back down in her haunches and her fur flattened against her skin once more, yet still on full alert about the wolf beside her. She wasn't a part of Tassos yet, but Aowyn seemed to notice her own defensiveness on the matter. She wondered what was going on with her. The changes in mood and thinking lately were irritating because they were confusing and frustrating. She tried to focus on the desert expanse that was beyond, attempting to mentally work through things.

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Having been pulled from her quiet reverie by Aowyn's reply, Kenley's fears that she had scared the other wolf into her stutter were assuaged. I wonder what happened to make her stutter like that... but never one to pry, Kenley let it slide. Perhaps one day she would be close enough with this wolf to know her story. Until then she would respect her privacy.

Hearing Aowyn praise the alpha of her new pack, Kenley felt a small stroke of pride shoot through her. This seemed to be a good pack, an accepting pack, one that she would fit into well. It felt as though a weight had been lifted from her shoulders. In the many months since leaving her home she finally belonged somewhere, and hopefully she would stay for a long time. She could contribute again, she had a family to care for again, perhaps some puppies to play with and help nurture.

Noting the female's reply to her previous question, Kenley was amazed. The size of this pack's territory was astounding to her, she'd never before had so much room in which to roam.

"Eruption? What happened?" Kenley had never heard of an eruption before, her previous home being all sand and dunes. A warm wind ruffled her fur, a welcome embrace that was familiar to her. She watched as the red wolf settled back into a sitting position, her stomach not quite as flat as a wolf of her size and stature should be. Perhaps this pack was so fruitful that not a single wolf went hungry, and their abdomens became distended with the amount of food. It was either that, or she'd recently been gifted with young. Not willing to unsettle the other wolf, or usurp this pack's shaman, Kenley kept the information to herself, until she felt sure that no bad would come from asking. Continuing to wait patiently until Aowyn saw fit to answer, Kenley looked out onto the sands before her.
OOC; Sorry it took me so long to reply, my hard drive crashed. Pm me if you need me to hustle along lol

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The stutter had seemed to form at an early age, breaking into her body and remaining there, caused by the horrendous methods in which her father wished to raise her. He had never been a kind male and it had not been easy trying to survive with him around. He certainly hadn't kept her around out of pity's sake. Her mother probably managed to convince him to do such.

Aowyn didn't mind speaking of the alpha, of praising him. After all, he was on her mind quite a bit more than usual, due to the night they had spent together. Had she simply done that out of sheer hormonal lust? She did not want to think so and she did not ever remember such a thing like that in the past. She hardly knew what love of this kind was, how could she know at all what that feeling had been? She did not know of her feelings, she was incredibly confused and lost, but she knew of his feelings for her. They were genuine, yet she still feared she would do something incredibly stupid. Perhaps she had always simply been sheltered, but there was one thing she was positive about: Rasalas was a good male. He was a good leader and a good wolf. She simply was unsure how to handle their next meeting, especially after that night.

The red femme turned her head once more to the black filth that covered the neighboring land. "Th-The volcano erupted ab-about a m-month ago. The p-p-pack ran h-here... ev-everyone made it s-safe." Which was a relief. She remembered being terrified when she had flown out of the Occasus and into Xisyn, seeming to almost break her ankle, being visited by the alpha when she rested near the stream. She was most comfortable by the stream, where she could catch fish for herself and others to eat. She wondered how much everyone else loved fish, because she knew she did. At the thought of the silver scaled creatures, her stomach audibly growled, signifying it wanted the creatures she thought of. "S-Sorry, I j-j-just ate, and n-now I want an-another fish..." That was embarrassing. She didn't understand why she wanted certain foods at random times.