Remnants Of A Broken Dream [open]

[Anima]

Heat. Intense sweltering heat. Bright colorful tall hot flames. Sounds of cracking and popping. Stumbling to her feet, dazed and confused, panting. Calling, whimpering, listening. Kiba. Running to her brother, running away, Kiba by her side. Calling again for her family, hoping, nothing. Trees falling, become separated, losing sight of her brother. Hesitating, looking back, contemplating if she should run back, die in her home. The scent of burnt fur, running again, breathing heavily. Finally breaking the tree line. Collapsing in the cool sand, breathing quickly, caughing, watching her home burn to the ground. Her heart breaking, thinking her family was dead. Darkness. 

The night was cool, the moon full and bright, directly over head. Few dark clouds dotted the black sky and the wind howled through the trees. Few creatures were stirring so except for the sound of the wind, all was quiet. The pure white wolf lay asleep atop a small hill and the moon shone down on her like a natural spotlight. She whimpered and stirred in her restless slumber. She breathed quickly and shallow as her legs moved as if she was running even though she was, in reality, going nowhere. It was clear to tell something was bothering her though it was impossible to tell what that thing was. 

Anima snapped awake, gasping for air as she sat up startled and shaking. That was the fifth time in the past week she'd had the same nightmare or flashback. It wasn't enough for the memories to haunt her every wakeful thought, they had to haunt her dreams as well. She didn't want to forget the aweful night her life came to a halt when she lost everything but she had hoped that she could at least put it behind her. However,  judging by the fact that she only had two days of peaceful sleep out of the past seven, she knew it would be a long while before her subconscious let her move on. 

She whimpered softly as her heart broke all over again for the millienth time. She wanted nothing more than to be able to sleep with her siblings again and to have her mother and uncle watching over them. Losing her home was one thing, that hurt but there was plenty of unclaimed lands they could move to and claim. Losing her entire family on the other hand killed her. She could stand losing her father like she did when he walked away but the rest of them....She howled depressingly into the night sky, letting her feelings reach the heavens, hoping that her family would hear her.

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Unable to sleep, Kasdeya made her way through the forest simply scouting out her new home. She was guided by the moon, listening to the chirping of the crickets and embracing the feel of the wind against her fur. She snuffed about, careful to keep an eye out for any other wolves, not wanting a confrontation of course.



She had been unable to sleep since the first day she washed upon the shore of this island, the memories coming back to haunt her every time she closed her eyes. Her family, gone, seemingly dead. her home destroyed. The flames sill licked at her fur every time she tried to sleep, almost catching up with her, nearly engulfing her before she would awake once more. Her only relief was holding on to the hope that her famiy and the rest of her pack got away safely.



It had only been a few days, but she already dearly missed her home. She craved the feeling of her brother Samael's back against hers as they slept, she whimpered in almost physical pain as she began to bring back all of the memories. When they first learned to fight, the first time she beat her brother Theron in a fight, when they first learned to hunt... Her memories began to snowball one after another until she literally collapsed where she stood, a howl filling the air, sounding exactly like what she felt like at the moment. She didn't think about it at first, the pain taking over her mind and body, but she pushed it all to the side to investigate where the howl had come from.



After rising from where she had fallen, she trotted through the trees and came upon the bottom of a hill, not a large one but large enough. She spotted a wolf at the top, it's coat shining in the silver of the moon above. She studied the figure for a moment before sending her own howl into the air. She didn't sense any danger from the wolf, and she couldn't stand to leave an animal that sounded like it may be in some kind of pain. Of course, if it was like her pain, there was little she could do to help.

[Anima]

While she howled, the white wolf was flooded with even more memories, though they took place during her childhood, before the dreadful fire, and consisted mostly of her uncle. Cato had not only been her uncle, but he was also her leader as alpha of Tala and he even took the place of her father after her real dad walked away, leaving his so called mate and children behind. He was her mentor and her protector. He taught her to hunt, to fight, to defend herself. He taught her to predict the weather, to make important decisions, and to thrive no matter the season. He was her best friend and would play with her, help her prank her mom, and curl up with her when she could not sleep. He truly saw her as a daughter and it showed with the ways he was there for her. Her siblings were either independent or close to her mom, Kiva. But Anima? She was always an uncle's girl. In fact, the only thing that kept her pushing forward instead of giving in and letting starvation take her from this reality was the fact that she didn't want to disappoint him. He worked hard to raise her to be a successful alpha along side her brother, Kiba and she wasn't going to let that all be in vain. Even though she doubted she would ever be given the opportunity to become alpha, she could at least continue living and focus on continually bettering herself. She could, and would join a pack and, even though her rank would be a lot lower, be the best pack member she could possibly be. She would make her new alpha proud of her and would know that she did everything she could do to be the wolf Cato wanted her to be.

When she ran out of air and her howl fell silent, she turned around looking for the wolf that joined in. It took her only a couple seconds to the spot the she wolf that stood at the bottom of the hill. Anima nodded respectfully to her before trotting down the hill to meet her. "Hello, I'm Anima, I hope I didn't wake you up or anything, I didn't mean to," She introduced herself and apologized for any inconvenience she may have caused. Even though she still hurt on the inside, with the arrival of another wolf, she straightened her posture, raised her head, and smiled the way her uncle taught her too. She didn't want to show her pain and vulnerability to any other wolf.  

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The other wolfs howl made her want to share their pain, and she joined in full-heartedly. She let loose the loudest howl she could muster, letting loose the pain of losing everything that ever mattered to her. Her father, the alpha, dead because of his determination to save the pack. not sure that her brother, having saved two pups, had gotten out alive, and she only had the hope that her mother and two brothers had been able to swim to safety. Her howl had softened to a hurt whimper as the other wolf ceased howling, and she could do nothing but hang her head and remember her losses, the nightmare playing over and over again in her head.



She watched the wolf at the top of the hill, backing up slightly as what seemed to be a female made her way down to the bottom of the hill. Of course, out of respect Kasdeya nodded as well, and introduced herself as well. "I'm Kasdeya. You didn't wake me, I have barely slept since I arrived here. I had actually hoped I hadn't disturbed you." She explained, tilting her head. Anima seemed confident and upfront, the howl couldn't have possibly come from her. It was one of pain and heartbreak. "You wouldn't be able to tell me where I am, would you?" Kasdeya glanced around, her shoulders not near as straightened as the other females. Though she wanted to appear confident, she simply couldn't. She was strong, but young, and had lost everything. She knew not Animas story, but they were much more brave than herself. She sat on the cool grass, looking at Anima carefully. She didn't seem like a threat, and Kasdeya was VERY good at depicting what animals had what intentions. She simply waited for some kind of answer, giving Anima a small smile.

[Anima]

"It is a pleasure to meet you, and good, I wouldn't have wanted to disturb anyone, although I am sorry you haven't slept much, I know all too well how frustrating that can be, and no you did not disturb me, it has been far too long since I have had anyone to howl with, it was nice. She was glad that she did not wake her. She was always afraid that she would get herself in trouble howling so late at night but she could never help it. When she had her nightmares, the only thing that soothed her feelings was howling as loud as she could and making herself believe that her family from wherever they were had heard her and were howling back. She knew that was not true but she tried hard not to think about that. As long as she could slightly convince herself,  she was able to keep going.

Anima shook her head at Kas' question. "I'm sorry but I've only been here a short while so I really can not help." Anima swam onto shore not far from where she currently was and had yet to really explore. She had no idea if she wad in the south, east, west, or north part of the island though she assumed, by remembering what Cato had taught her about watching the sun, that she was in the north. As curious as she was about the rest of the island she had no idea if she would ever actually explore it. She had found a pack not far off and, being eager to rejoin a pack, knew she would soon join it. However, once she was in she knew she would be unable to leave and go check out the island. But to her, the pack was more important. It was what her uncle would have wanted so it was what she would do.