Post by Harlot on Jan 18, 2016 2:26:24 GMT -5
Harlot was absolutely miserable.
Though the symptoms of her pregnancy where mild, to put it simply, her mood was on the exact opposite of the spectrum. When she’d first realized she was carrying Arche’s pups, after grumbling for days over her increasing appetite, restlessness, and widening hips, she’d been…numb. There was no giddy happiness, no awe, though she’d certainly smiled and feigned glee when she’d told Arche. Really, though, what had she been expecting? She was a fool. She’d known the potential consequences of mating with him during her time, and yet she’d allowed desire to rule her, foolishly thinking that she’d be one of the lucky femmes who did not conceive from their night of passion. She had been wrong.
It was early in her pregnancy, and her belly was not yet bulging to the point of irritation, but there was a noticeable rotundness to her stomach, making her condition clear to those who looked closely enough. This alone would normally have been reason for a femme not to leave the safety of her pack…but Harlot, it seemed, did not do normal. She’d crossed the Airila border some time ago, picking her way around the mountains, sometimes daring to cross in the less treacherous areas, until at last she’d reached foreign land. She knew, of course, that it was claimed, and yet there was a part of her that stubbornly pushed onwards. Let them kill me, if they wish, she thought snidely, her sapphire eyes narrowed. For then I will not have to deal with being pregnant.
If she was being honest with herself, Harlot was scared. The simple heart of the matter was that she did not want to be a mother. She had never been particularly fond of pups, and yet now her treacherous stomach swelled with the promise of them, and Harlot wasn’t sure how to handle it. Arche, of course, had doted upon her since the moment he’d found out, feeding her and tending to her every need. But Harlot had never been the type of she-wolf to settle down with a brute and start a family. Each time that Arche referred to her as his mate, she had to refrain from flinching. She knew that it was an ideal situation, something she should have been grateful for…but instead there was only a growing resentment and a sense of fear within her.
Now, as she came to stand upon a ridge overlooking the land below, she sighed. Soon enough she would have to return to Shyia before Arche noticed that she had gone. She’d risen early, before the sun had even peaked above the clouds, though it now began to ascend in the distance. But for now, she would enjoy the tiny slice of freedom she’d found when it suddenly seemed as if there was very little that she could control in her life.
Though the symptoms of her pregnancy where mild, to put it simply, her mood was on the exact opposite of the spectrum. When she’d first realized she was carrying Arche’s pups, after grumbling for days over her increasing appetite, restlessness, and widening hips, she’d been…numb. There was no giddy happiness, no awe, though she’d certainly smiled and feigned glee when she’d told Arche. Really, though, what had she been expecting? She was a fool. She’d known the potential consequences of mating with him during her time, and yet she’d allowed desire to rule her, foolishly thinking that she’d be one of the lucky femmes who did not conceive from their night of passion. She had been wrong.
It was early in her pregnancy, and her belly was not yet bulging to the point of irritation, but there was a noticeable rotundness to her stomach, making her condition clear to those who looked closely enough. This alone would normally have been reason for a femme not to leave the safety of her pack…but Harlot, it seemed, did not do normal. She’d crossed the Airila border some time ago, picking her way around the mountains, sometimes daring to cross in the less treacherous areas, until at last she’d reached foreign land. She knew, of course, that it was claimed, and yet there was a part of her that stubbornly pushed onwards. Let them kill me, if they wish, she thought snidely, her sapphire eyes narrowed. For then I will not have to deal with being pregnant.
If she was being honest with herself, Harlot was scared. The simple heart of the matter was that she did not want to be a mother. She had never been particularly fond of pups, and yet now her treacherous stomach swelled with the promise of them, and Harlot wasn’t sure how to handle it. Arche, of course, had doted upon her since the moment he’d found out, feeding her and tending to her every need. But Harlot had never been the type of she-wolf to settle down with a brute and start a family. Each time that Arche referred to her as his mate, she had to refrain from flinching. She knew that it was an ideal situation, something she should have been grateful for…but instead there was only a growing resentment and a sense of fear within her.
Now, as she came to stand upon a ridge overlooking the land below, she sighed. Soon enough she would have to return to Shyia before Arche noticed that she had gone. She’d risen early, before the sun had even peaked above the clouds, though it now began to ascend in the distance. But for now, she would enjoy the tiny slice of freedom she’d found when it suddenly seemed as if there was very little that she could control in her life.
TAG: Leviathan
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NOTES: >)
WORDS: 479
NOTES: >)