Post by Zirena on Jun 13, 2013 9:11:56 GMT -5
After leaving Rurik, the word "Bitch" still rung in her head. Why would he call her that? She didn't think that she was mean. Did everyone think that about her? Speaking with Rurik was one of the first times that she had actually spoken to a pup from another litter. She had seen Atlas around and he was with Sypher once but she didn't really talk to him. Was that how the other litters saw her? Did they think she was a bitch too? She hadn't done anything to Rurik..well, nothing that bad anyway. Yes, she had lied to him and she laughed at him a little but getting your ass stuck in a hole was pretty funny! Anyone would have laughed. Despite him being much younger, his words still hurt. She had hidden her hurt from him for the most part but that didn't mean that it wasn't there. It was just locked away under her fur. A tear fell from her face and her gait slowed from a jog to a slow walk. Her eyes started burning and her vision had blurred. She wasn't used to being spoken to in the manner that he did. He was angry at her for just being there. It was like he was angry at her for being alive or something. Of course, she was angry at him for being alive but that was only after he used that ugly word.
She had to pull herself together though. She didn't want to be crying in front of Daddy. That wouldn't make her look very mature at all. Besides, she didn't want to be seen as the "weak" one anymore. She was strong too. She had taught Rurik a lesson. He didn't strike back at her and he didn't even say anything. That meant that he got the message and knew not to do it again, right? If it had been her, all hell would have broken out if another wolf struck her. Of course he was from the "different" litter as she refereed to them sometimes. She sniffled and wiped the tears away from her face with her paw. She took a deep breath and continued walking. She was better than that. That wasn't how a princess was supposed to behave. She was almost a year old. To her, that was an adult. She was breathing deeply to try to keep herself under control.
She found a spot that looked somewhat comfortable. She sat her rump on a hollow log and howled to her Daddy. Her voice was still immature sounding as she was not fully grown. However, it was much clearer sounding than it had been a few months ago. She had been working on her howl. She wanted her howl to be pretty like Mommy's was. She wanted to be pretty all together. Pretty but strong. Like all of the stories she's heard of wonderfully strong and beautiful females. Maybe that would prove to Daddy that girls are just as good as boys.
Just then, a wave of nervousness swept over the young princess. What if Daddy got mad at her for asking for a rank? What if she was supposed to wait until he assigned her one? Zirena had always been a little impatient with things like that. She wanted things when she wanted them. She thought that she was ready now. She didn't want to wait another few months. What if Daddy laughed at her? What if he made her an Omega? Could he do that to his daughter? Surely all he would do was say "no"? She hoped so. She didn't want Daddy to be mad at her. She had had her feelings hurt enough already today. She was a bit surprised at herself that she still went through with this. Part of her just wanted to lay down in the dens and sleep off what had happened today. But, that would show Rurik that it had actually hurt her. She couldn't let him know that it affected her. That would mean that he would win and she would lose. Zirena hated losing. She would show him that he meant nothing to her and his words were nothing but words without meaning. She was better than him and she would show him that.
Her tail thumped the log as she waited somewhat patiently for her Daddy. She had never really called him like this before so she wasn't even sure if he would show up. Her life had been so..distant from the pack life. Her days were spent playing with her siblings and exploring the pack lands. What made her think that she could handle this responsibility? She was wasn't sure which added to her nervousness. She hadn't ever asked Daddy for anything like this before. She didn't get to talk to him much at all which is something that she misses. Maybe he missed talking to her? Daddy had lots of pups now but he hadn't forgotten about her, right? Maybe he still thought about her. There were so many questions swirling around in the young princess' brain. Talking to her father would be good for her. She needed that one on one time with him. Her eyes were still burning and she didn't know if they were red or not. She hoped not. Or at least if it was, that Daddy wouldn't notice. She began to lick the small traces of blood off of her claws from Rurik's face to dispose of evidence that anything had happened. This wasn't about Rurik anymore. This was about her and her Daddy.
Vorilye
Notes: She's been bugging me about this for a while now so I thought I'd get it up for her.
Words: Many
Muse: Pretty good.