Post by Anima on Aug 14, 2014 1:07:12 GMT -5
I failed. The words kept repeating in her tired mind as she lay on the ground completely submissive, all of her vital spots exposed. She had failed her family, she had failed herself, she failed her uncle, she failed her mission, and by the looks of it, she completely failed her master. She had taken to long to go hunting, her best skill had failed her. She had never gotten in trouble by doing something for someone before and the fact that that was the reason that she was in the position she was in killed her. Why couldn't he see she was trying to be good? She was trying to turn herself into his pet and forgot the things she had been taught about an alpha but it wasn't working. She was getting punished for being good and that made the voice in her head surface again and made her think of her reflection. I am not meant to be an omega and a toy, I Was born to be a mighty alphess beside an even mightier alpha. Somehow I cannot hide who I am, though I've tried. When will my reflection show who I am inside? She sighed aloud at the thoughts going through her head.
The fact that he laughed and the comments that followed after it made her whole body tense as her mind filed with a silent snarl and the voice in her head grew louder. If he was going to laugh and be sarcastic about her trying her best to change then why should she try at all? She wanted to say screw it, she would let who she was out and would get her freedom back even if it meant dying in the process but she knew she was in no position to say her thoughts. As he bit down on her throat, she closed her eyes figuring this was it. She would die because she had tried to do something nice. However, when he released her, she relaxed only slightly as her body grew more tense. She didn't die but she had gotten more wounds and more blood just for trying to help and be good. Fuck this, all of it she thought to herself but what she said aloud was simply, "Yes, Zitao." When she was allowed to get up, she did so slowly. She made it look like it was from submission but really she just didn't want to hurry and follow him. She grabbed the fox and began slowly dragging it back. Her stomach growled again and she contemplated eating it but she was too tired to start anything. She just wanted sleep, to find peace in her dreams.
The fact that he laughed and the comments that followed after it made her whole body tense as her mind filed with a silent snarl and the voice in her head grew louder. If he was going to laugh and be sarcastic about her trying her best to change then why should she try at all? She wanted to say screw it, she would let who she was out and would get her freedom back even if it meant dying in the process but she knew she was in no position to say her thoughts. As he bit down on her throat, she closed her eyes figuring this was it. She would die because she had tried to do something nice. However, when he released her, she relaxed only slightly as her body grew more tense. She didn't die but she had gotten more wounds and more blood just for trying to help and be good. Fuck this, all of it she thought to herself but what she said aloud was simply, "Yes, Zitao." When she was allowed to get up, she did so slowly. She made it look like it was from submission but really she just didn't want to hurry and follow him. She grabbed the fox and began slowly dragging it back. Her stomach growled again and she contemplated eating it but she was too tired to start anything. She just wanted sleep, to find peace in her dreams.